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Chapters (47)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Part I
  5. Lulu
  6. Lulu
  7. Elfriede
  8. Lulu
  9. Elfriede
  10. Lulu
  11. Elfriede
  12. Lulu
  13. Part II
  14. Lulu
  15. Elfriede
  16. Lulu
  17. Elfriede
  18. Lulu
  19. Part III
  20. Lulu
  21. Elfriede
  22. Lulu
  23. Elfriede
  24. Lulu
  25. Elfriede
  26. Part IV
  27. Lulu
  28. Lulu
  29. Elfriede
  30. War Office, London
  31. Lulu
  32. Elfriede
  33. Lulu
  34. Lulu
  35. Lulu
  36. Part V
  37. Lulu
  38. Part VI
  39. Ursula
  40. Lulu
  41. Elfriede
  42. EpilogueLulu
  43. Historical Note
  44. Acknowledgments
  45. About the Author
  46. Also by Beatriz Williams
  47. About the Publisher

The knee slips. The air stops. The universe rotates around a single word. The salt sea invades them, sand against skin, the noise of water, the color of twilight. The hot, drowsy air. The trunk of an orange tree.

Wilfred says, “Yes, I remember Florida.”

“Those three beautiful weeks. The only real joy we had, before we lost the girls. I remember how we fell asleep each night. I don’t think I’ve ever slept so deeply in my life.”

Outside the folly, along the riverbank, the frogs have started up. Or maybe they were croaking all along, and Elfriede’s only just noticed them. A lumpy frog chorus, like the chorus of night creatures in Florida, outside her window made sacred by love.

“I remember the morning I saw the blood in my drawers, and how shocked I was. I’d thought I must surely be with child, after all we’d done. And it grieved me. I wanted it so. I wanted to be pregnant by you, Wilfred, to grow your child inside me. I still remember that shock and grief, and how I knew, in that moment, just how much I loved you. I loved you so much, I wanted a baby from you. I loved you so much, I forgot all the sorrow. And that was the moment our sorrows began.”

“But life is never without sorrow. You can’t—Elfriede, you can’t mean to say you were unhappy all these years? You can’t mean to say that we didn’t have our joys, just because there was grief too?”

Elfriede reaches for her husband’s hand, which turns out to be folded against his chest, under his arm. She draws it across the arc of her belly to rest near her navel. The baby rumbles around beneath.

“I don’t know what I mean. I want it back, that’s all.”

“Want what back? Florida?”

“You’d been with other women then, when we were apart, and I didn’t care, because you were mine. And maybe . . . don’t you see? Maybe it doesn’t ever matter, as long as—as long as—”

Wilfred’s hand pulls free from hers. He takes hold of her sash and unties the knot. He parts the dressing gown and lowers himself on his knees, between her knees, holding her womb between his palms.