It wasn’t that I thought there was anything inherently wrong or unnatural about it. When it came to humans, I didn’t notice them all that much. When I did, sometimes I noticed girls and sometimes I noticed guys. It had never really occurred to me to think about the fact that I noticed girls and guys because it happened so rarely. It wasn’t a big deal. My attraction to humans had always been so mild compared to what books and movies made seem normal, that until I met Storm, I’d sometimes wondered if there was something wrong with me. You know, like if I was broken or something. Until I met her, I spent a huge amount of my time wanting to have sex, but not knowing who I wanted to have it with.

So, it wasn’t the fact that Jules was a guy that was confusing. It was just that it was Jules. My friend Jules. My first friend, Jules. I’d seen him almost every day of my life and yet I’d never, ever seen him the way I did when I saw him naked for sex. Not only that, I saw the way Jules had looked when he told me about Mason. I was there. He’d said his parents didn’t think Mason being with a man was natural. I saw his face when he said it. I knew how to read him. I knew him better than anyone. He wasn’t sure if he thought it was natural or not. He was my best friend, and I knew without having to ask that there was no way in the world he’d be comfortable knowing how I watched him when he was with Storm.

It should have been a relief for me when she left, and to a certain degree it was. It was just that her being gone didn’t have quite the effect I’d hoped it would. I’d hoped that everything would go back to boring normal, but Storm being gone didn’t do a damn thing to stop me from thinking about all the things Jules and I had done when we were with her. It did nothing at all to stop that. In fact, it might have made it worse. I was way hornier without having her around as an outlet. Without her being around, my mind ran wild. It ran wild in the night, and after a while, it started running wild in the day, too. I jerked off all the time. I jerked off so much that I heard my parents talking about it.