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Chapters (35)
  1. Praise
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright Page
  4. Dedication
  5. 1 - Friday 29 Feb 2008
  6. 2 - 1/3/08
  7. 3 - Sunday 2 March 2008
  8. 4 - 3/3/08
  9. 5 - Monday 3 March 2008
  10. 6 - 3/3/08
  11. 7 - Monday 3 March 2008
  12. 8 - 4/3/08
  13. 9 - Tuesday 4 March 2008
  14. 10 - 4/3/08
  15. 11 - Tuesday 4 March 2008
  16. 12 - 5/3/08
  17. 13 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  18. 14 - 5/3/08
  19. 15 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  20. 16 - 5/3/08
  21. 17 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  22. 18 - 5/3/08
  23. 19 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  24. 20 - 5/3/08
  25. 21 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  26. 22 - 5/3/08
  27. 23 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  28. 24 - 5/3/08
  29. 25 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  30. 26 - 5/3/08
  31. 27 - Wednesday 5 March 2008
  32. 28 - 12/3/08
  33. 29 - Tuesday 1 April 2008
  34. Acknowledgements
  35. AVAILABLE FROMPENGUIN

‘Basically. In as subtle a way as possible.’ Seeing my shock, Mary smirks. ‘Villiers families do it all the time—a crate of champagne to the head to secure a good reference, that sort of thing. Martha knew exactly what Cecily had in mind, and was desperate enough to turn a blind eye. She wanted Aidan, and she didn’t care how she got him. At the private view, he barely looked in her direction. When she cornered him and asked why he’d invited her, he said, “You’re interested in my work, aren’t you? You always seemed to be. I thought you’d want to come.” ’

I find my voice and say, ‘I don’t believe he’d be so insensitive.’ No one would.

‘Yes, you do,’ says Mary. ‘You believe it because it’s true. When Martha got upset, he sneered at her, called her a fake. Said he’d hoped she’d still want to support his work, even though things hadn’t worked out between them personally. That was what he said—“hadn’t worked out”—as if he’d tried his hardest. Martha lost it then, told him she’d been lying when she’d said her work was more important to her than a happy personal life. The others were right about him, she said—he was a self-important wanker. Bit awkward, when some of those others were also there, at the preview. Not as awkward as Cecily, though.’

Mary shakes her head in disgust. ‘Martha had finally realised it was finished—the years-long fantasy died that night. He’d invited her knowing how she felt about him, knowing he didn’t feel the same way, but hoping she’d buy one of his grim paintings all the same. She couldn’t pretend after that. But her mother didn’t know it was game over, so she started to wage her campaign: poured charm all over Aidan, told him she was Martha’s mother, hinted at the size of the family fortune, dithered over which picture to buy and declared herself so unable to decide that she might have to buy more than one. Martha took her to one side and begged her not to buy anything, but Cecily wouldn’t have it. She did agree to buy one picture, not two—she made that concession, but she didn’t take Martha seriously when she said she wanted Aidan’s show to be a failure. Martha often said things she didn’t mean in the heat of the moment, and Cecily was used to her breaking down in tears immediately afterwards and taking it all back. She didn’t see that this time was different.’ Mary lapses into a brooding silence.

‘Different because Martha had finally given up on him?’ I say tentatively, knowing I will never give up on Aidan, though he might have given up on me a long time ago. I love him, no matter what he’s done.