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Chapters (28)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Part One
  5. 1. Sunday, June 30, 2002
  6. 2. Sunday, June 30, 2002
  7. 3. Saturday, June 29, 2002
  8. 4. Spring 1963
  9. 5. Sunday, June 30, 2002
  10. 6. Winter and Spring 1968
  11. 7. Monday, July 1, 2002
  12. 8. Tuesday, July 2, 2002
  13. 9. Wednesday, July 3, 2002
  14. Part Two
  15. 10. Summer 1968
  16. 11. Thursday, July 4, 2002
  17. 12. Summer 1968
  18. 13. Friday, July 5, 2002
  19. 14. Summer 19682
  20. Part Three
  21. 15. Saturday, July 6, 2002
  22. 16. The End of the World, 1968
  23. 17. The Beginning of the World, 1968
  24. 18. Sunday, July 7, 2002
  25. 19. Her Oldest Friend, 1987
  26. 20. Sunday, July 7, 2002
  27. Acknowledgments
  28. About the Author

Maude looked away. “Everything needs to come from your mother.”

“Was he driving? Was he drinking?”

Maude arched a thin gray eyebrow, skin creasing above it, the big eye below suddenly smoother and younger and sarcastic. “Back to you, dear. Does Ned find your injury frustrating?”

Polly started laughing. “No, I’m the one who’s angry. Everyone watching me, everyone asking questions and not believing my answers. No one believes me.”

“Do you find that in grief your memory is even worse?”

“No,” said Polly. “Maybe it concentrates the mind. It all feels much closer. I have so many questions.”

Helen was watching them, and Fritz the mutt and the old poodle were watching, too. The new edge to Polly’s voice was like a special radio frequency. Maude looked as if she wanted to retrench but Polly didn’t give her a chance.

“Think of your own childhood,” she said. “What would your parents have not believed that you’d remember?”

“Tricky girl,” said Maude. “Probably them having sex in the pantry, when they didn’t think we knew. My father’s face, his voice, or being carried by my mother. And you?”

Polly started to speak but stopped herself.

Maude waited, leaning toward her. “What were you going to say?”

Polly thought of a lawyer’s problem: If you’re not sure you want to know the answer, don’t ask. And what was Maude searching for, here? “Dee told me something, and I wondered if you agreed. She said there were three kinds of dreams.”

“Ah!” said Maude. “She meant lasting dreams, the kind that return. I suppose it’s as true as any theory. Do you have the same now that you did as a child? What are they?”

“Boats,” said Polly. “Men in boats. And women in the water.”

They were quiet for several minutes. Helen went back to her mud creatures. She was covering their heads with flower petals, tiny bits of bachelor button and calendula. Maude was watching closely, fascinated, and said her mother had done this with her when she was a child. Polly didn’t admit that she knew this already. They watched Helen line up her figures, sing some gibberish, and blast them with a hose.

“Will you have a nap before dinner and visiting Harry?” asked Polly.

“I will,” said Maude. “Hans and I each had a gimlet or two.”