Contents ( 53)
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Map
- Contents
- July 6, 1978
- 11:45 p.m.
- 1
- July 7, 1978
- 7:30 a.m.
- 2
- July 7, 1978
- 7:30 a.m.
- 3
- July 7, 1978
- 8:05 a.m.
- 4
- 5
- 6
- July 11, 1978
- 6:00 p.m.
- 7
- 8
- 9
- July 11, 1978
- 9:30 p.m.
- 10
- 11
- 12
- 13
- 14
- 15
- 16
- 17
- 18
- 19
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- 21
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- 23
- 24
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- 30
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Books by Maureen Johnson
- Back Ad
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
Her boyfriend for most of high school, Shawn Greenvale, was a similarly dedicated student, though his accomplishments were not as great as Sabrina’s. At Liberty High, Sabrina was known for being talented at everything, and for being good in general.
She set the tablet down and stared up at the ceiling for a moment.
“You okay?” Janelle asked.
“Yeah,” Stevie said. “It’s just . . . the Ellingham case felt really far away. It was really far away. There was no one left to . . .”
Stevie couldn’t quite finish the thought, so Janelle stepped in.
“Feel any pain?”
“Yeah. Allison is still so raw. It’s never stopped for her. And here I am—I’m at this camp, trying to work it out. Do I have any right to do that?”
Janelle considered this for a moment as the rain strummed its fingers on the roof.
“I think it’s good that you’re wondering that,” she said after a moment. “It means you know where your priorities are. You are also the person who worked out what happened at Ellingham Academy in 1936.”
“Am I?”
“Yeah. You really are.”
“So why do I feel like a fake?”
“Because most people feel like fakes,” Janelle replied. “Impostor syndrome. It’s a thing.”
“Do you ever feel that way?”
Janelle considered this.
“No,” she said. “But what I do is different. I make things. If they work, I can see them work. If they don’t work, I take them apart until they do. I have science on my side. You’re making things you can’t see.”
It was good to have smart friends.
“The only times I feel it are when I think about Vi,” Janelle said. “Not . . . like, not about us. But now that they’re so far away . . . I can’t think sometimes. I only think about them. I think about the next text message, the next chat, the next picture. I should be more serious. I should be thinking about my project for next year, or college, and I am . . . but then I check my phone to see if they texted.”
“Isn’t that normal?” Stevie said.
“I guess. But I don’t want to be normal.”
“You love Vi,” Stevie said.
“Yeah. I do.”
“And Vi loves you.”
“Yeah,” Janelle said with a little sigh. “They do.”
“So I guess you have to ride it out.”
“I . . . I want Vi here. Vietnam is too far. September is too far.”
A silence settled over them, full of rain.
“Can you imagine how much Nate would hate this conversation?” Stevie finally said.
Janelle’s laughter rang out like a bell.
“I’m going to put my headphones in,” she said. “I listen to music to go to sleep.”
She switched out her light, and after a moment, Stevie did the same.
For the first time in months, Stevie felt complete again. She was working a case. She was with her friends. Janelle was breathing gently in her sleep. The fan ticked away like a heartbeat.