He unbuckled his jeans until he was down to his underwear. Even in the murky darkness, I saw his bulge. “Not anymore you’re not. Figured you could use a real man for your first time.”

Thoughts on why he did this raced through my mind, and I struggled to come up with a good reason. I suspected there weren’t any – not really – especially for something this monstrous. It might’ve been Becky and I telling him no earlier. Maybe Becky’s anger at him meant he wanted to take it out on her brother. Maybe it was male dominance. This was the ultimate domination of another man. Perhaps I sold out my humanity to aliens, and he thought I needed punishment. This was a unique opportunity, and therefore irresistible.

There were other things to think about but all I could see was the twisted mirror in front of me. I had questions about my sexuality, but I would never do this. I… I like men now and I think the old me would have too, eventually. At least I hope so. Otherwise, it would have been even more of a half-life.

Nate? He wasn’t gay. At least not like me. He resented the Volardi. They were bigger and stronger and insult to his manhood. This was his way to get back and reassert himself, if only in his thoughts. My change gave him just enough of an ‘out’ that he could convince himself that he was still straight. I wasn’t a guy. I was a man that could have babies.

No matter the reason, he crawled on top of me and I socked with all my strength. His eyes closed and I’m sure he felt some pain, but not enough. He stood still while I did it again. I suspected it was his way to show how helpless I was. He pinned both arms down before he spoke. “Here’s what’ll happen. My cock is going into that sweet new ass pussy of yours. When we’re done, and I shoot my load into you, you’ll go into your bedroom and tell no one what happened.” His grip around my wrists tightened. “If you do... I got a rifle.”

I swallowed. Maybe it was intuition, but I knew he wasn’t threatening me – at least not directly. My plan to revert to full humanity wouldn’t work. Soon I’d be off planet. Light-years away from direct revenge. That would give me the opportunity to tell. If I did, Pa – maybe Becky too – would be in danger.

My expression must have told him I understood since he smiled.

I pushed again against his grip and stayed in place. Strength, body weight, and leverage – either was enough to keep me pinned down. He had all three in abundance. Besides, I was fighting the pills. Not enough to put me to sleep but enough to take most of the fight out of me.

It was no secret I feared a man’s cock inside, although there were certain Volardi ponderings. Whatever the answer was to that, I know I didn’t want Nate to be my first or any time after.