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“Nonsensical,” she said. “You can’t speak of simultaneity under these conditions.”
“It’s far from psychologically nonsensical,” he answered. “At Beta Virginis we would have had a thread of contact with home. We would have thought that the younger ones we left behind, given longevity treatments, were still alive. If we must return, surely enough continuity would have persisted that we didn’t come back as utter aliens. Now, though— the fact that in some sense, whether a mathematical one or not— at best, babies whom we saw in their cribs are nearing the end of life— it reminds us too hard, we can never regain any trace of what we once loved.”
“M-m-m… I suppose. Like watching somebody you care about die of a slow disease. You aren’t surprised when the end comes; nevertheless, it is the end.” Lindgren blinked. “Damn!”
“You must do what you can to help them through this period,” Telander said. “You know how better than I.”
“You could do a good deal yourself.”
The gaunt head shook. “Best not. On the contrary, I’m going to withdraw.”
“What do you mean?” she asked with a touch of alarm.
“Nothing dramatic,” he said. “My work with the engineering and navigation departments, in these unpredictable circumstances, does take most of my waking hours. It’ll provide a cover for my gradually ceasing to mix in shipboard society.”
“Whatever for?”
“I’ve had several talks with Charles Reymont. He has made an excellent point— a crucial one, I do believe. When uncertainty surrounds us, when despair is always waiting to break us… the average person aboard has to feel his life is in competent hands. Of course, no one is going to suppose consciously that the captain is infallible. But there’s an unconscious need for such an aura. And I— I have my share of weakness and stupidity. My human-level judgments can’t stand up to daily testing under high stress.”
Lindgren crouched in her seat. “What does the constable want of you?”
“That I stop operating on an informal, intimate basis. The excuse will be that I mustn’t be distracted by ordinary business, when my whole attention must go to getting us safely through the galaxy’s clouds and clusters. It’s a reasonable excuse, it will be accepted. In the end, I shall be dining separately, in here, except on ceremonial occasions. I shall take my exercise and recreation here too, alone. What personal visitors I have will be the highest-ranking officers, like you. We will surround me with official etiquette. Through his own assistants, Reymont will pass the word that polite forms of address toward me are expected of everyone.
“In short, your good gray friend Lars Telander is about to change into the Old Man.”
“It sounds like Reymont’s kind of scheme,” she said bitterly.
* * *
“He’s convinced me it’s desirable,” the captain replied.
“With no thought for what it can do to you!”
“I’n manage. I never was hail-fellow-well-met. We have many books along in the microtapes that I always wanted to read.” Telander regarded her earnestly. Though the air was nearing the warmest part of its cycle and was tinged with a smell like new-mown hay, the fine hairs were standing erect on her arms. “You have a role also, Ingrid. More than ever, you will handle the human problems. Organization, mediation, alleviation… it won’t be easy.”