“No, but... look, have you ever heard of kink? Look up kinky books on your e-reader and read some of those, and I think you’ll figure it out. You’re a good looking guy Luke, and you’re pretty awesome. You two just didn’t jive in the bedroom; it happens.”

Part of him didn’t want to follow Mercy’s advice about checking out kinky books, because he was still annoyed Samantha couldn’t have just told him what she wanted or what she found so boring about sex with him, but after about a week he couldn’t help himself. If it would stop the constant thoughts and self-doubt running around his head, what could it hurt?

After about a week he finally gave in and went searching for ‘kinky books.’ There were plenty available for free. Not that he couldn’t afford to buy a few books, but he was still feeling pretty resentful and the idea of purchasing books to explain exactly how he’d been lacking in the bedroom only made him more so.

He didn’t have much time for reading, but it didn’t take too long to figure out what Mercy had been talking about. Samantha had wanted some guy to boss her around, maybe spank her or even tie her up. She’d hinted at wanting him to take charge a few times and he’d tried to oblige, because he’d wanted to please her, but he hadn’t found those sessions particularly hot or fun for him. He definitely hadn’t ever spanked her or tied her up, and he’d only taken charge when she’d made it clear that was what she’d wanted. While he didn’t hate all of the ideas, it sounded exhausting being the one constantly in charge. He was in charge all day at work, keeping track of all sorts of minutiae. His favorite times were when he could set down all the work of running a construction business and just do the actual construction. When he had sex, he didn’t want to be constantly in charge. He just wanted to have sex. Maybe have someone else tell him what to do.

So Mercy was right. If Samantha wanted to hand over control in the bedroom to someone else, then he and his ex would like the same thing. Unfortunately, in this case, wanting the same thing made them incompatible. Sighing, Luke had put down the e-reader. There were women in the some books who took charge, which sounded hot, but he hadn’t the slightest idea of how to find one.

He liked a bossy woman, which was why Samantha had appealed to him, but apparently even the bossy ones didn’t want to be bossy in the bedroom. Which, made sense to him, but then how was he supposed to find one who did?