“Sarah’s a very lucky gal,” she said, and climbed to the top of the stairs. “Don’t worry, I’ll make sure someone comes and finds you.”
“Trixie,” I said, one last time. “Just tell me. Why are you doing this?”
She paused, looked at me very seriously for a moment, and said, “I’m not going to let them get my little girl.”
And then she was gone.
She was late.
A couple of days, Miranda didn’t worry. Took note of it, but didn’t panic or anything. But then it was a week. Ten days. Now it was time to panic. She went to the drugstore and came home with a pregnancy test. Went into the bathroom, closed the door.
“What’s up, Candace?” Eldon said. “You seem funny.”
She came out a few minutes later. “You’ve knocked me up,” she said.
“Huh?” he said.
“I’m gonna have a kid,” Miranda said. She had no idea what he would do. Storm out, maybe? Start screaming? Accuse her of fucking up her birth control? She thought maybe he’d hit her. That’s the sort of thing her dad did when she said something that upset him. Just whacked her upside the head. Eldon had never hit her, but there was always a first time. There always had to be a first time when a guy you thought loved you took a swing at you.
He said, “You think it’s a girl?”
She said, “What?”
“A girl. You think it’s a girl? Because, you’re so beautiful, if it’s a girl, she’ll be beautiful too.”
The guy was full of surprises.
Gary had already been letting her split her time between the stage and the office upstairs. He’d turned over the books to her, but once in a while, a girl would take off sick, Gary’d tell her, “Go downstairs and do some bump and grind. If we didn’t have the ol’ bump and grind goin’ on, there’d be no books to balance.” Like Miranda should be grateful he was giving her a chance to take her clothes off because it gave her money to count upstairs later.
But once she started showing, well, that was it. Nobody wanted to drink their beer watching some chick who was knocked up.
So in a way, it all worked out okay. Sort of.
But in the back of her mind, Miranda was thinking about the kind of world she was going to bring this baby into. She hadn’t known, for several years now, a particularly respectable life. Not like her sister, Claire. She and Don had gotten married, they had a decent apartment now, not some place over a pizza joint. She had her secretary job, he had his job at Ford. Not that they’d have to worry that much about bringing any kid into the world. Claire couldn’t have kids, it turned out.
How crazy. Claire’s home was the perfect one in which to raise a child, but she couldn’t have one.
And I’m the one who’s pregnant, thought Miranda. Working in a bar with strippers and hookers and dope dealers.