“For a diplomat,” Dustin said softly, “you don’t have an awful lot of tact.”

“I don’t have to be a diplomat with you and her. Do I?”

“Of course not.” He got up and went to the fridge. “Cheese?”

“I just ate a whole bird.”

“A little one.” He set out five chunks of cheese, including half a wheel of Brie, and put them on a platter with some bread and a knife. “They won’t have cows in ad Astra.”

I sliced off a piece of something blue. “Not going to keep for fifty years,” he said.

“Not much will.” I was still seeing her. “Gehenna will just be a history lesson to most people.”

He broke the lengthening silence. “Her name was Mira?”

“Moira. My father approved of her, nice Jewish girl. I think he’s a little scared of Elza.”

“Who wouldn’t be?”

“I’ll give you something to be scared of,” she said from the bedroom, bantering, the hurt gone from her voice.

“Best offer I’ve had today,” he said.

I didn’t hear her walking up behind me, barefoot. She put both hands lightly on my head and tangled my hair with her fingers. “I’ll sleep with Namir tonight.”

“Okay by me,” I said.

“We have to talk.” She rubbed my temples. “You can love her. You will love her, always. But you have to leave her here. Here on Earth.”

“I think that’s already done.” Literally, anyhow.

“We’ll talk about it.” She went back to the large bedroom.

I joined her there an hour later and we did talk. Moira was my generation, a year older than me, but forever young to Elza, and not much I could do about that.

She wanted to know what Moira and I had done that I didn’t do with her, and I tried not to think of it as an invasion of privacy. Of course the big thing she couldn’t do was have me as a twenty-five-year-old lad, and there was another thing I didn’t mention, to preserve the woman’s dead dignity. But I did describe a trick Moira would do with her breasts, and we were both happy and relieved when she made it work. Elza’s a little self-conscious about her small breasts, as Moira was about her large ones. I decided not to bring that up.

While we lay there entwined, the diplomat in me affirmed that I could leave Moira here on Earth. I didn’t say that part of me would stay with her, too; neither of us buried, neither dead.

I pretended to be asleep, as always, when she slipped away to join Dustin. Thinking furiously about the lies that grace our lives.

12

GROWING THINGS

The Martians came up a week after we did. We helped them unload their few packages. Earth-normal weight was oppressive to them, and they clumped around with exaggerated care. Well, it wasn’t exaggeration. Like having to carry around a weight one and a half times as heavy as you are. Carry it for thirteen years with no relief.