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Chapters (30)
  1. Chapter 1
  2. Chapter 2
  3. Chapter 3
  4. Chapter 4
  5. Chapter 5
  6. Chapter 6
  7. Chapter 7
  8. Chapter 8
  9. Chapter 9
  10. Chapter 10
  11. Chapter 11
  12. Chapter 12
  13. Chapter 13
  14. Chapter 14
  15. Chapter 15
  16. Chapter 16
  17. Chapter 17
  18. Chapter 18
  19. Chapter 19
  20. Chapter 20
  21. Chapter 21
  22. Chapter 22
  23. Chapter 23
  24. Chapter 24
  25. Chapter 25
  26. Chapter 26
  27. Chapter 27
  28. Chapter 28
  29. Acknowledgements
  30. The Astronaut’s Son by Tom Seigel

Tuesday morning I went to San Rafael to get the materials I needed to build the cage and then went back to the studio to start prepping the wood. I was unloading everything from my truck when Rae left to take Diego for a walk; I was still out there when she returned. She didn’t acknowledge me, and I didn’t acknowledge her, not even when Diego ran over to investigate what I was doing. I assumed this meant Rae and I had a mutual understanding that we would steer clear of each other while October was out of town, and that suited me fine. But later in the afternoon, as I was measuring for the double grid that would be the floor of the cage, Rae came back outside.

She walked to the opposite side of the table and used a hand to shield her eyes from the sun. Instead of her usual almonds and raisins, she had a bag of dried apricots, and as she held one between her thumb and index finger, the sun shone through it the way a flashlight illuminates the veins of a hand.

I took my time with the piece of wood I was working on and then put down my pencil and waited for her to say whatever it was she wanted to say. Sweat dripped into my eyes, and I wiped my brow.

“I told you everything would go back to normal once Chris got home, yeah?”

I think she was waiting for me to put my hurt feelings on display for her, but she would wait a long time for that. I could feign indifference better than anyone. I gave her nothing.

“They’re in Big Sur, in case you’re wondering.” She ate the apricot she’d been holding. “A little romantic getaway at the Post Ranch Inn.”

I watched foamy saliva collect and pool in the corners of her mouth when she talked and chewed at the same time. And as I stood there listening to her, I wondered if she was deliberately trying to hurt me or simply trying to prove her point.

“I happen to know you’re the one who asked Cal to fly home,” I said. “He told me.”

She looked confused, and I corrected myself. “Chris, I mean.”

“Right. October mentioned you and Chris are what, childhood friends or something? What a coincidence, yeah?”

She was doing it again. Insinuating that I had some ulterior motive to come in and steal October from Cal. She had no clue.

“Some friend you are,” she said.

I hesitated to respond. In my opinion, this was none of Rae’s business. But I didn’t want her meddling any further. More specifically, I didn’t want her telling Cal anything that would hurt him.