Back Sophomores
Chapters (30)
  1. Cover
  2. ALSO BY SEAN DESMOND
  3. Dedication
  4. September 18, 1987
  5. September 18
  6. September 26
  7. October 9
  8. October 15
  9. October 16
  10. October 19
  11. October 23
  12. November 13
  13. November 13
  14. November 30
  15. December 7
  16. December 26
  17. January 1, 1988
  18. January 31
  19. February
  20. March 17
  21. March 21
  22. April 8
  23. April 8
  24. April 8
  25. April 15
  26. May 22
  27. June 3
  28. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  29. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  30. What’s next on your reading list?

And so they had another drink, and then another, and Pat found out a few things about Carmen. She was born in Mexico but had lived in Texas since she was a teenager. She had been married, but it didn’t work out, and Pat nodded and sucked on his lip in sympathy. They both agreed on the weather, on sports—Carmen, like Pat, was a big baseball fan. In fact, everything Pat said or suggested found Carmen in agreement. They were very like-minded and very whiskey fueled. Carmen was from a different station in life, but Pat didn’t mind. He crowed about how he knew a lot of Puerto Ricans in the Bronx, and Mexicans weren’t much different. If anything he had an inebriate pride about how he had learned to walk with beggars and kings, and was Patricio Malone, friend to the Latin race. And now Carmen’s pink fingers were rubbing his shoulder.

“So listen, you’re married . . .”

Pat thumbed at his ring finger as reality returned. The glow became a thin gray cloud. Carmen whispered through a slick smile.

“It’s okay, I don’t care. We’re both adults, right?”

And Pat started to panic. His leg throbbed. He thought about Anne and the thousand questions she would have about the letter, and the package, and the extension of benefits, and for how long, and on and on, about this and that. What did Shapiro say to you? What are we going to do now? Jesus Christ. His head was spinning, and he had drunk three past where he promised himself to stop.

“Listen, baby, we should get out of here.”

“Sorry, what?”

“We could go somewhere else. You know . . .” And then her lips came close to his ear and he couldn’t make out what she was saying. Her words just echoed like the sea, and he could only focus on the smell of her perfume, and her cheek grazing his.

“Carmen, I can’t.”

“No problema, I just thought . . .”

“What?”

She sat back in a half pout. “You have sad eyes, Pat. I like you. And you like me, right? And I want to help you. Make you happy, right?”

Pat, drunk and unsure, fell for this. What she said seemed so clear and simple. And Pat wanted what was easy, warm. Her hand came back in a caress. Pat’s head sank into his shoulders.

“What’s wrong? Did I say something wrong?”

“No, you’re right. I’ve been sad for a long time.”

“I know, baby. It’s okay.”

Pat patted her hand and forced his face into a grin of assurance. She had smooth skin and huddled together with him, so Pat could look straight down her top and peek at her bra, red and frilled with roses.

“Listen, baby, let’s go somewhere else. We don’t need to be here, right?”

Pat sucked the last drops of whiskey out of the ice and nodded. He was entering a world below the one he normally lived in. “Where do you want to go? Can you drive?”