Chapters (8)
Nadia You feel you don’t have a right to be happy.
Tim I don’t want to hear all that stuff. All that stuff we keep telling ourselves. I’m happy, you’re happy. We’re okay. I don’t want to hear it.
Nadia So, what? AM the old stuff people used to programme themselves with – I’m a victim, I’m poor. Same old patterns?
Tim I don’t know. I envy people who can’t get medicine.
Nadia Come on.
Victor Then you are very stupid.
Tim Don’t speak to me like that you trash, you slave / you Russian doll.
Victor Stupid, stupid.
Nadia Take the pills. Please. I love you. Victor loves you. Don’t you Victor?
Tim No he doesn’t. / Just leave both of you. Go. Go.
Nadia Victor tel him what you feel.
Victor No.
Nadia You told me you were upset and you told me that you really care about Tim.
Victor All I can think about is you. I think about you all the time. I wish I didn’t feel this way but I do. I hope … I think. Let the trash music take it away, let the trash … the dumdumdum … let it fill up your head. Dumdum. But I can’t do that any more. And I can’t hear the music any more.
Tim Maybe it’s not loud enough.
Victor I want you to be alive.
Tim For your sake?
Victor I want you to take them for me. For my sake.
Tim Weak. You’re a weak person. What’s a person? What’s a death? Millions of people out there. Millions of people out there to fuck and dance with and be with – so don’t be so fucking weak. Get out there – dum, dum, dum. Because I don’t want you here and I don’t want to be alive.
Nadia But being alive is great.
Tim And what’s so great about your life? Nothing. Nick’s left you. Everyone’s left you. You’ll never hold on to anyone.
Nadia But I’ve learnt from that / I’ve grown. I have.
Tim Shite. Shite. Shite. You deserve each other. Cling together you little weak people.
Victor Yes, maybe we do that. Come, Come.
Victor begins to caress Nadia.
Come on. Feel me. I have a good body. Better than Nick I think, yes? Better than Simon. I like women. I’m not afraid of women. I can fuck women.
Nadia touches Victor’s body.
Victor How does this feel?
Nadia Good.
Victor You could fuck this body?
Nadia Maybe.
Tim Go on – fuck each other.
Victor Yes. Fuck these gays, yes? Scared of the woman’s bodies.
Nadia Yes. Scared.
Tim If that’l stop you being lonely, fuck each other.
Victor and. Nadia dance suggestively together.
Victor Gays are …
Nadia Ill.
Victor Ill and …
Nadia Frightened. Frightened people.
Tim Are you enjoying that?
Victor I want your pussy.
Victor goes down on Nadia.
Tim Happy now?
Victor Sorry. You speak to … ?
Tim Is that fun?