Chapters (10)
Shall we, said she, acquaint Jeronymo with this conversation?
It may disturb him, replied I. You know, ma-dam, his generous attachment to me. I have pro mised the general a visit. Signor Jeronymo was as much pleased with the promise, as with the invitation. The performance will add to his pleasure. He may get more strength: Lady Clementina may be still better: and you will, from events so happy, be able to resolve. Still be pleased to remember, that I hold myself bound, yourselves to be free.
Yet I thought at the time, with a concern, that, perhaps, was too visible, When shall I meet with the returns, which my proud heart challenges as its due? But then my pride (shall I call it?) came in to my relief Great God! I thank thee, thought I, that thou enablest me to do what my conscience, what humanity tells me, is fit and right to be done, with-out taking my measures of right and wrong from any other standard.
Father Marescotti saw me affected. Tears stood in his eyes. The marchioness was still more concerned. She called me the most generous of men, took a respectful leave, and withdrew to Jeronymo.
As I was intending to return to my lodgings, in order to try to calm there my disturbed mind, the marquis and his brother, and the bishop, sent for me into the marchioness’s drawing-room, where were she and Father Marescotti; who had acquainted them with what had passed between her, himself, and me.
The bishop arose, and embraced me Dear Grandison, said he, how 1 admire you! Why, why will you not let me call you brother? Were a prince your competitor, and you would be a Catholic
O that you would! said the marchioness; her hands and eyes lifted up.
And will you not? Can you not, my dear che-valier? said the count.
That, my lord, is a question kindly put, as it shews your regard for me But it is not to be an-swered now.
The marquis took my hand. He applauded the disinterestedness of my behaviour to his family. He approved of my proposal of absence; but said, that I must myself undertake to manage that part, not only with their Clementina, but with Jeronymo; whose grateful heart would otherwise be uneasy, on a surmise, that the motion came not from myself, but them.
We will not resolve upon any measures, said he. (lod continue and improve our prospects; and the result we will leave to his Providence.
I went from them directly to Jeronymo; and told him of my intended journey.
He asked me, What would become of Clementina in the mean time? Was there not too great a dan-ger that she would go back again?
I told him I would not go, but with her appro-bation.