Chapters (10)
What a disappointment, my Jeronymo, was her rejection of me! obliged, as I was. to admire the noble lady the more for her motives of rejecting me.
And now, my dear friend, what is your wish? Tiiat I .shall set your sister an example? How can I? Is marriage in my power? There is but one woman in the world, now your dear Clementina has refused me that I can think worthy of succeeding her in my affections, though there are thousands of whom I am not worthy. And will that lady accept of a man whose heart had been another’s, and that other living, and single, and still honouring him with so much of her regard, as may be thought sufficient to attach a grateful heart, and occasion a divided love? Cle-mentina herself is not more truly delicate than this lady. Indeed, Jeronymo, I am ready when I contemplate my situation, on a siipposilioii of making my addresses to her, to give up myself, as the unworthi-est of her favour of all the men I know; and she has for an admirer almost every man who sees her Even Olivia admires her! Can I do justice to the merits of both, and ytt not appear to be divided by a double love? For I will own to all the world, my affection for Clementina; and, as once it was encou-raged by her whole family, glory in it.
You see, my .leronymo, how I am circumstanced. The example, I fear, must come from Italy; not from England. Yet say I not this for punctilio sake: it is not m mv prracr to set it as it is in your Clemen-tina’s: it would be presumption to suppose it is. Cle — mentina has nor an aversion to the state: she cannot to the viKui vou have in view, since prepossession in favour of aiiother is over. This is a hard task upon c 3 me. I presume not to say what Clementina tuill, what she can do: but she is naturally the most duti-ful of children, and has a high sense of the more than common obligations she owes to parents, to brothers, to whom she has as unhappily as involun-tarily given great distress: difference in religion, the motive of her rejecting me, is not in the question: filial duty is an article of religion.
I do myself the honour of writing to the mar-chioness, to the general, to Father Marescotti, and to Mr. Lowther. May the Almighty perfect your recovery, my Jeronymo; and preserve in health and spirits the dear Clementina! and may every other laudable wish of the hearts of a family so truly excellent, be granted to them! prays, my dearest Jeronymo, the friend who expects to see you in England; the friend who loves you, as he loves his own heart; and equally honours all of your name; and voill, so long as he is
CHARLES GRANDISON.
Letter VI.
Mrs. Reev’^es to Miss Byron.