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Chapters (44)
  1. Dedication
  2. Chapter One
  3. Chapter Two
  4. Chapter Three
  5. Chapter Four
  6. Chapter Five
  7. Chapter Six
  8. Chapter Seven
  9. Chapter Eight
  10. Chapter Nine
  11. Chapter Ten
  12. Chapter Eleven
  13. Chapter Twelve
  14. Chapter Thirteen
  15. Chapter Fourteen
  16. Chapter Fifteen
  17. Chapter Sixteen
  18. Chapter Seventeen
  19. Chapter Eighteen
  20. Chapter Nineteen
  21. Chapter Twenty
  22. Chapter Twenty-One
  23. Chapter Twenty-Two
  24. Chapter Twenty-Three
  25. Chapter Twenty-Four
  26. Chapter Twenty-Five
  27. Chapter Twenty-Six
  28. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  29. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  30. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  31. Chapter Thirty
  32. Chapter Thirty-One
  33. Chapter Thirty-Two
  34. Chapter Thirty-Three
  35. Chapter Thirty-Four
  36. Chapter Thirty-Five
  37. Chapter Thirty-Six
  38. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  39. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  40. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  41. Chapter Forty
  42. About the Author
  43. Also by Stephen Booth
  44. About the Publisher

‘Then I haven’t described it properly. The fact is, not everyone finds psychosis a negative experience. While some patients suffer persecutory or self-blaming delusions, others develop grandiose fantasies or have an experience of deep religious significance. This can appear very positive and life-affirming.’

‘Are you serious?’

‘Absolutely. I’ve known some individuals describe a psychotic episode as a revelation, a wonderful and exciting new way of seeing the world – in fact, the sort of experience that people seek from hallucinogenic drugs. You know, a surprisingly large percentage of the population have undergone a psychotic episode of some kind, without being disturbed by the experience. At the end of the day, a hallucination is merely the misattribution of internal events to an external source.’

Cooper shook his head, trying to throw off a sudden, unwelcome burst of insight, a glimpse of how it might feel if the reality of his own world became suspect. He was sure he would find it disturbing.

‘Could we get back to the question of John Lowther’s condition, and how he was being treated?’

‘Well, when Mr Lowther was discharged, he returned to the community. He has family members in Derbyshire. It’s normal practice to ensure that the family are fully aware of the importance of maintaining medication. We can’t be there standing over every patient personally, to make sure they take their drugs.’

‘Who was supposed to do that? His parents?’

Dr Sinclair frowned at the file. ‘According to his records, there’s a sister.’

‘She’s dead.’

‘Oh.’

‘And I think she might have been too preoccupied recently to worry about her brother.’

‘Mr Lowther must have been due for a review,’ said Sinclair. ‘Perhaps his GP had examined him recently.’

They looked at each other for a moment, conscious of the futility of trying to work out where and when the system had gone wrong.

‘Basically, a dangerous psychotic was allowed out into society unsupervised,’ said Cooper.

‘No, no, you don’t understand. Once a patient is discharged and living at home, clinicians are helpless. Even if we know they might be a risk to themselves and others, we can’t force an individual to continue medication. Not at present.’

‘But you’d like to be able to compel people to take their drugs?’

‘Detective Constable, fifty thousand patients are detained by psychiatrists every year. If we can’t compel people to continue medication when they’re back in the community, all that happens is that some of them get very ill again and have to be detained a second time, or a third. It just goes on and on.’

‘The revolving door approach. We see it often enough in the courts.’