The last sentence chimed so loudly with Pip’s own position that it brought her up short. It was uncanny. She could have written the entry herself. Looking up from the diary for a moment, she checked that Audrey was still occupied elsewhere and then read on.

Saturday 26th February

I’ve been quite low today. It’s probably because Joan was so horrible yesterday. I kept thinking about how things might have been. It’s the injustice of it all that really irks me. The pregnancy, losing the best job I’ve ever had, being forced to move back here. It’s all so unfair. Plus, the second series of Into the Blue is coming out soon, which is just the icing on the stinking cake! I saw a trailer for it today and, annoyingly, it looks fantastic. It breaks my heart that the role should have been my big break and yet here I am, no longer an actress – no longer anything at all except a single mother. I know that’s a really important job and I wouldn’t be without my darling S, but I don’t see why I couldn’t have had the job and the baby. I’d have made it work if I’d only been given the chance. But no. I had to up sticks, leave it all behind and just accept that’s the way things work.

And what makes it worse is that Joan is so obnoxious. She never misses an opportunity to say something nasty. She obviously thinks I should be ashamed of Scarlet – she even called me a trollop this morning. And she said it in front of S! Of course, S had no idea what it meant, but she asked me afterwards and I had to make something up. I was biting back the tears. I’m sure poor little S noticed that I was upset. It can’t be good for her growing up in this toxic atmosphere, but what choice do I have? That’s how J gets away with it. She knows that I’ve got nowhere else to go.

I almost asked Ted if we could live with him last week but I know that wouldn’t work. I’ve got no money and I can’t ask him to support us. People will think that S is his child and that would just make his life difficult as well as mine, plus it would break his mother’s heart and I couldn’t do that to him. I know he wants to help, but there’s not much he can do from down there. At least when I ring him if Joan goes out, he’s happy to listen to me rant. Bless him. He’s been so good to me. I really miss him.

And (now I really am ranting) on top of all that, I’m a much better actress than the one they replaced me with. I know that sounds a bit arrogant but it’s true! Rory MacMillan will never know what he’s missed.

Pip’s mind was all questions. Who was the diary writer, and her horrible sister? What had happened between the two of them to so damage their relationship? There was clearly a child involved, Scarlet, but where was the father? Ted was mentioned, but it wasn’t him. And who was Rory MacMillan? The whole thing read like a soap opera.