He doubts she has any, and sips his drink. Although in this county women with big bottoms usually don’t go begging. Dutchmen love bulk. He says, “Well, I don’t know if I did such a great job with Janice. She has to live too.”

“Well Harry, if that’s your reasoning, we all have to live.” And from the way she stands there in front of him, if he sat up straight her pussy would be exactly at his nose. Hair tickles: he might sneeze. He sips the drink again, and feels the tasteless fluid expand his inner space. He might sit up at any minute, if she doesn’t watch out. From the hair on her head probably a thick springy bush, though you can’t always tell, some of the cunts in the magazine just had wisps at the base of their bellies, hardly an armpit’s worth. Dolls. She moves away saying, “Who’ll hold families together, if everybody has to live? Living is a compromise, between doing what you want and doing what other people want.”

“What about what poor old God wants?”

The uncalled-for noun jars her from the seductive pose she has assumed, facing out the window, her backside turned to him. The dog position. Tip her over a chair and let her fuss herself with her fingers into coming while he does it from behind. Janice got so she preferred it, more animal, she wasn’t distracted by the look on his face, never was one for wet kisses, when they first started going together complained she couldn’t breathe, he asked her if she had adenoids. Seriously. No two alike, a billion cunts in the world, snowflakes. Touch them right they melt. What we most protect is where we want to be invaded. Peggy leaves her drink on the sill like a tall jewel and turns to him with her deformed face open. Since the word has been sprung on her, she asks, “Don’t you think God is people?”

“No, I think God is everything that isn’t people. I guess I think that. I don’t think enough to know what I think.” In irritation, he stands.

Big against the window, a hot shadow, palish-purple edges catching the light ebbing from the red city, the dim mountain, Peggy exclaims. “Oh, you think with”—and to assist her awkward thought she draws his shape in the air with two hands, having freed them for this gesture—“your whole person.”

She looks so helpless and vague there seems nothing for Harry to do but step into the outline of himself she has drawn and kiss her. Her face, eclipsed, feels large and cool. Her lips bumble on his, the spongy wax of gumdrops, yet narcotic, not quite tasteless: as a kid Rabbit loved bland candy like Dots; sitting in the movies he used to plow through three nickel boxes of them, playing with them with his tongue and teeth, playing, playing before giving himself the ecstasy of the bite. Up and down his length she bumps against him, straining against his height, touching. The strange place on her where nothing is, the strange place higher where some things are. Her haunches knot with the effort of keeping on tiptoe. She pushes, pushes: he is a cunt this one-eyed woman is coldly pushing up into. He feels her mind gutter out; she has wrapped them in a clumsy large ball of darkness.