Chapters (13)
It was a long way, and a standing jump instead of a running one, and even though I stretched as far as I could, my fingers only grazed the stone railing, and I knew I’d fall. . . .
But something bore me up, just for a moment, and carried me those last vital inches, so that my hand wrapped around one of the stone braces beneath and stopped me, and when I looked down, I saw a shade there, limned cold in the moonlight as it broke through the clouds.
My beloved cousin Romeo. Only a last, wavering image of him, shivering like an illusion of heat.
His lips moved, though I heard no voice, and then he smiled, and where he had floated there was only mist rising into the night.
I scrambled up, vaulted over the balcony railing, and found the shutters closed. Shouting from within Juliet’s room told me the servants had uncovered the nurse’s body, and I quickly slipped my dagger between the wooden leaves of the shutters and raised the latch, and then I was inside Rosaline’s apartment.
She was at the door, threading the key into the lock with shaking hands, and she whirled as the fresh breeze blew in to flap the curtains around me. The candle on the table guttered, but did not quite go out.
I stayed where I was, and she where she was, as if we tested ourselves.
“I feel . . .” She swallowed, and hugged herself hard. “I feel cold. And very . . . very alone.”
I knew that. I felt the desolation, too, the sadness, but I knew that it was only the aftermath of that awful flame that had been lit between us; a passion like that, flaming so fast, could only scorch, not warm.
So I crossed the space between us and put my arms around her, and after a long heartbeat’s pause, she sank against me, and rested her head upon my shoulder, and sighed a little in utter relief.
“What do you feel?” she asked me, in a quiet, muffled tone. She did not raise her head to meet my gaze.
“Grief,” I said, and stroked her hair. “But grief passes.”
“And the two of us, will we also pass?” She was crying, but it was a silent thing; I felt the damp heat of her tears through my shirtsleeve, but she made no sound to betray it.
“No,” I said, and she lifted her head then, eyes shimmering and wet, and lips parted. “I saw Mercutio’s ghost a moment ago. And he spoke to me.”
“What did he say?”
“He said, ‘Love well, if not wisely,’” I said. “And I love you well, Capulet.”