Back Out of the Ashes
Chapters (50)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Part One
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Part Two
  18. Chapter One
  19. Chapter Two
  20. Chapter Three
  21. Chapter Four
  22. Chapter Five
  23. Chapter Six
  24. Chapter Seven
  25. Chapter Eight
  26. Chapter Nine
  27. Chapter Ten
  28. Chapter Eleven
  29. Chapter Twelve
  30. Part Three
  31. Chapter One
  32. Chapter Two
  33. Chapter Three
  34. Chapter Four
  35. Chapter Five
  36. Chapter Six
  37. Chapter Seven
  38. Chapter Eight
  39. Chapter Nine
  40. Chapter Ten
  41. Chapter Eleven
  42. Chapter Twelve
  43. Chapter Thirteen
  44. Chapter Fourteen
  45. Chapter Fifteen
  46. Chapter Sixteen
  47. Chapter Seventeen
  48. Chapter Eighteen
  49. Acknowledgements
  50. New Beginnings

She ate some of her sandwich, pondering upon what his relationship with his first wife might have been. Had she perhaps neglected the early symptoms of her illness and Jake been less insistent than he was being with Laura? From what Marianne had learned from Janis and Jeremy, their mother was a bright woman. Whom they had never heard quarrel with their father, Janis had revealed, which could mean she was of that ilk able to manipulate her husband without his realizing it.

Unlike Laura, who shared with Marianne the directness some found unwelcome, a characteristic difficult to restrain. But that wasn’t the only reason Laura was having trouble playing the role in which Jake had cast her.

Marianne recalled the dishevelled teenager who years ago had hitchhiked to London – and presented herself on my doorstep!

As the leopard does not change its spots, nor had the essence of that girl, now a woman, changed. What we are is what we remain, thought Marianne. Only the shell that houses the person is transformable.

‘You look as if you need a bath!’ Ralph had said to Laura that night. ‘When you’ve had one we’ll talk while you have something to eat.’

Or words to that effect, and Laura had done as she was bid without argument. So it had continued. In the Deans’ easy household the free spirit she was had blossomed. But Marianne feared that her love for Jake had caused her to return the genie to the bottle.

What was her row with Jake this morning if not the cork blowing?

Hard though it was to do so, Marianne switched her mind to her work. She had intended watching a TV documentary, but with so much time lost today…

The interruptions, however, were not yet over. The doorbell rang.

But what a welcome visitor this was. ‘A.P. What a lovely surprise!’

‘Got any cornflakes, Gran? I’ve had my meal, but I’m feeling a bit peckish.’

‘Cornflakes don’t get eaten in my home on the Passover,’ she replied with a smile, ‘but you’re welcome to matzo and jam.’

‘Your special ginger jam?’

‘None other. You’re exactly like your dad was at your age,’ Marianne told him en route to the kitchen. ‘Cereal was never just breakfast food to him. No matter how big a dinner he’d eaten, half an hour later I’d find him scoffing a big bowl of what he used to call “the necessary”. When we visited the family up north, though, and there was meat for dinner, he was made to wait the number of hours orthodox Jews are required to before afterwards consuming dairy foods.’

‘How very inconvenient,’ said A.P. ‘Was that why you joined a Reform synagogue, Gran?’