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  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Ruth
  5. One
  6. Lyudmila
  7. Ruth
  8. Iris
  9. Ruth
  10. Iris
  11. Ruth
  12. Iris
  13. Ruth
  14. Iris
  15. Ruth
  16. Iris
  17. Two
  18. Lyudmila
  19. Ruth
  20. Iris
  21. Ruth
  22. Iris
  23. Ruth
  24. Iris
  25. Lyudmila
  26. Ruth
  27. Iris
  28. Ruth
  29. Iris
  30. Ruth
  31. Lyudmila
  32. Iris
  33. Ruth
  34. Iris
  35. Three
  36. Lyudmila
  37. Ruth
  38. Lyudmila
  39. Ruth
  40. Sasha
  41. Lyudmila
  42. Iris
  43. Ruth
  44. Four
  45. Iris
  46. Author’s Note
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Q&A with Beatriz Williams
  51. Reading Group Guide
  52. Praise for Our Woman in Moscow
  53. Also by Beatriz Williams
  54. About the Publisher
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“You haven’t changed a thing.”

“Why should I? This way I am never old. I am always young man with beautiful young woman. Wine?”

“Oh, damn,” I murmur.

“Is that yes or no?”

“Yes. I was just thinking about old buildings, that’s all. Our fanatical need to keep them exactly as they were. I still live in my parents’ old apartment in New York.”

“But you have redecorated.”

“Some of it. Not all.”

He hands me the wine and nods. “Because if it stays as it was, they are not entirely dead, yes? Your childhood still there in walls.”

“What I’ve always hated about you, Orlovsky, is that you understood me better than anybody. Next you’ll be telling me you were actually in love with me.” I clink my glass against his. “Cheers.”

“But I was in love with you. I love each girl I sleep with. I love them with all my heart.” He presses his hand against his chest, where this generous organ resides. “But especially you, bambina.”

“Oh, of course.”

“No, is true. You have quality, special quality in your spirit, I cannot find word in English.”

“Don’t bother. I’m not twenty-two anymore, and I’m not here to be seduced. We can be perfectly honest with each other.”

“But I am always honest with you, bambina. When did I ever tell lie to you?”

I make a skeptical noise. “Shall we sit? I don’t imagine we have much time. The princess will want you home.”

“My wife? No, she is not so particular now.” He half shrugs, half gestures to the couch. “We are both getting old, yes? More kind to each other. Forgiveness. You see, it is relief to let go of passions.”

I sit not on the couch, but on the armchair next to it—a massive, ancient hulk made of unyielding dark wood upholstered in sumptuous bronze and green tapestry, which contains its own set of memories. I recall a few as I arrange myself, things I haven’t remembered in years, and I wonder at my own youthful abandon. What happened to that gamine blond girl who so gleefully straddled a married man in a chair built for a Medici prince and made him howl like some kind of Siberian wolf? Does she still exist? Or is age and wisdom a permanent affliction? The wine surprises me. “Oh, you’ve finally gone native, have you?”

“It seemed patriotic thing to do, in time of war. Then I developed taste for it.” He brushes his hand over the corner of the sofa nearest me and sits like an old man, stiff and deliberate, not altogether confident in his joints. My God, what the war’s done to him. Twelve years, and he’s transformed from a vigorous, distinguished, infinitely charismatic man enjoying a singularly virile middle age to this creaking roué. “You approve? Is some champagne in cellar, I think.”