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Chapters (54)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Ruth
  5. One
  6. Lyudmila
  7. Ruth
  8. Iris
  9. Ruth
  10. Iris
  11. Ruth
  12. Iris
  13. Ruth
  14. Iris
  15. Ruth
  16. Iris
  17. Two
  18. Lyudmila
  19. Ruth
  20. Iris
  21. Ruth
  22. Iris
  23. Ruth
  24. Iris
  25. Lyudmila
  26. Ruth
  27. Iris
  28. Ruth
  29. Iris
  30. Ruth
  31. Lyudmila
  32. Iris
  33. Ruth
  34. Iris
  35. Three
  36. Lyudmila
  37. Ruth
  38. Lyudmila
  39. Ruth
  40. Sasha
  41. Lyudmila
  42. Iris
  43. Ruth
  44. Four
  45. Iris
  46. Author’s Note
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Q&A with Beatriz Williams
  51. Reading Group Guide
  52. Praise for Our Woman in Moscow
  53. Also by Beatriz Williams
  54. About the Publisher

Ruth hurried down the rest of the stairs and sat down next to Iris. “That bastard. I oughta knock his lights out.”

“It’s not—it’s not—It’s my sketchbook!”

“What happened? Did you leave it on a bus somewhere?”

Iris told her sister about the Blackshirts and the café, about all the charcoal drawings fluttering in the air to land on the dirty floor and the sidewalk, about all the people who pretended not to notice, who wouldn’t help, even the waiter. How the two men had left, jeering at her, and disappeared down the street.

Ruth took a handkerchief from her pocket. “Here.”

“And I’m pretty sure they didn’t pay, either!” Iris said, blowing her nose.

“Fascist pigs.”

“I g-gathered up the pages, but they’re all d-dirty and torn and just ruined.”

Ruth gathered Iris in her arms and spoke soothingly into her hair. “Another week and we’ll be gone from here. No more goddamn wars and Blackshirts. I’ll take you home and everything will be all right again.”

Iris leaned her face into Ruth’s shoulder, which smelled of cigarettes and some kind of perfume. Her throat hurt, not because of crying but because of everything she couldn’t say to her own twin sister—the whole story—how she didn’t want to leave, she couldn’t leave, she could not possibly leave one-half of her entire heart in Rome and continue to exist—it was a medical impossibility. The incalculably precious moments of Tivoli laid against her present despair. All those pages torn from her sketchbook, containing everything that was beautiful inside her.

THE NEXT EVENING, THE eighth of June, Harry arrived at their apartment for dinner. He was exhausted. Feed me, Harry begged, and Ruth poured out the drinks while Iris dressed a chicken and scraped together vegetables for a salad. Harry sucked every particle of meat from the bones and sat back on the sofa with a bottle of gin. Ruth asked what was up, was it really as bad as people were saying?

“Worse,” said Harry. “They’ll be in Paris in a week.”

“What about Dunkirk?” Iris asked. “The poor English soldiers.”

“They got as many out as they could. It’s a miracle, really. Paris is next. There’s nothing to keep the Nazis out.”

“Poor Paris.”

Harry looked destroyed. His shirt hung from his bones. His cheeks were hollow, his skin pale and impoverished. Even his hair looked tarnished. Iris couldn’t believe her eyes. Harry, the stalwart older brother, their protector from the vicissitudes of life, the man of the house! She wanted to cook him another chicken and watch him eat it. She wanted to comfort him, to hold him in her arms like a child. She wanted to ask him about Sasha. Was Sasha as ruined as Harry? As overworked and underfed and underloved?

“What about Italy?” Ruth asked.