She paused for a moment, forcing herself to smile. Panowski’s concern remained, but he relaxed visibly, and she made herself move slowly and calmly as she walked to the center of the bridge and looked around for McKeon. There was no sign of him, but the briefing room door was closed.

She crossed to it, and the executive officer looked up as the hatch slid aside. She didn’t like stepping into that compartment just then. Too much cold hatred had washed its bulkheads, and she could feel the prickles of McKeon’s residual rage radiating out to mesh and resonate with hers, yet he managed a strained smile and started to rise.

She waved him back and crossed to her own chair. She sank into it and turned it to face him.

“You took a chance, Alistair,” she said. It was the first time she’d ever used his given name, but he didn’t even seem to notice.

“I—” He wiggled his shoulders. “He just made me so damned mad, Ma’am. Coming in here like God descending to smite the sinners. And that last filthy trick of his—” The exec gritted his teeth and shook his head.

“He’s not going to forget the way you backed him down.” McKeon nodded, and Honor felt a certain bitter irony at the way her words echoed his own warning to her after Tremaine discovered that first illegal Hauptman shipment. “You shouldn’t have done it,” she went on levelly. “It was my fight and my responsibility, but… thank you.”

McKeon’s head came up, and he flushed.

“It wasn’t just your fight, Ma’am. It was the Navy’s. Hell, it was Fearless’s, and that makes it mine, too.” His flush deepened, and he looked back down at the fingers suddenly interlaced in his lap.

“I… haven’t been much of an exec to you, have I, Ma’am?” he asked quietly.

Honor started a quick reply, then paused, gazing at the crown of his lowered head. This man had just put himself far, far out on a limb for her. He’d antagonized one of the most powerful men in the Kingdom, and she shuddered to think where her confrontation with Hauptman would have ended had she responded without his intervention. The use of the collector tap to turn Hauptman’s manipulations back on him had never even occurred to her. She hadn’t been thinking clearly enough for that. All she’d felt was hate and disgust and the need to strike back. She knew herself—knew she’d hovered on the brink of physically attacking the man in her fury, and that would have ruined her, whatever the provocation.

McKeon had stopped her before she did that. He’d seen the opening and taken it, forced Hauptman back onto the defensive, won her time to regain at least some control of herself. She owed him for that—owed him a deep, intensely personal debt she rather doubted she could every repay. And because she did, she wanted to tell him not to worry, to brush over his shortcomings as her first officer.