Back Never Have I Ever
Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue - Life After Death
  5. Chapter 1 - Charmed Life
  6. Chapter 2 - CSI, Tucson
  7. Chapter 3 - Spinning Her Wheels
  8. Chapter 4 - Paper Trail
  9. Chapter 5 - Extreme Times Call for Extreme Measures
  10. Chapter 6 - A Criminal History
  11. Chapter 7 - The Ultimate Prank
  12. Chapter 8 - Truth or Consequences
  13. Chapter 9 - Daddy’s Little Girl
  14. Chapter 10 - Fish Out of Water
  15. Chapter 11 - Nothing Like a Threat at 2 A.M.
  16. Chapter 12 - A Secret of a Different Kind
  17. Chapter 13 - Double the Trouble
  18. Chapter 14 - An Opening... and a Closing
  19. Chapter 15 - An A for Effort
  20. Chapter 16 - X Marks the Spot
  21. Chapter 17 - Tremors and Treachery and Threats, Oh My!
  22. Chapter 18 - The Writing on the Wall
  23. Chapter 19 - Creepy Vampires to the Left, Stalkers to the Right
  24. Chapter 20 - Service with a Snicker
  25. Chapter 21 - Tweet, Untweet
  26. Chapter 22 - The Awful Truth
  27. Chapter 23 - The Viking’s Revenge
  28. Chapter 24 - Almost, But Not Quite
  29. Chapter 25 - One Down, One to Go
  30. Chapter 26 - A Shove in the Dark
  31. Chapter 27 - Walled In
  32. Chapter 28 - The Darkest Place in the World
  33. Chapter 29 - The Aftermath
  34. Chapter 30 - Clever Little Bitches
  35. Chapter 31 - The Moment We’ve Been Waiting For
  36. Chapter 32 - A Moment in Time
  37. Epilogue - A Moment in Time
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. About the Author
  40. Books by Sara Shepard
  41. Credits
  42. Copyright
  43. About the Publisher

She looked around the garage, surprised to see that she and Mr. Mercer might have a bit in common. On the wall was a tattered poster of a flame-burst Gibson Les Paul, one of Emma’s favorite guitars from when she’d gone through her I-want-to-be-in-a-band phase. There was also a framed reprint of Emma’s favorite incorrect newspaper headline, DEWEY BEATS TRUMAN. And to the left of the racks of car-detailing equipment and weed killer was a small shelf that held ragged, well-loved crime-fiction paperbacks, many of which Emma had devoured, too. She wondered why they weren’t on the built-in bookshelves in the main house. Was Mrs. Mercer ashamed that her husband wasn’t into literary fiction? Or was it a dad thing to keep his favorite possessions in his own space?

Emma had never met her own father. When she was in kindergarten, a bunch of kids’ dads came into class and talked about what they did for a living; there was a doctor, a guy who owned a musical instrument shop, and a chef. Emma went home that day and asked Becky what her dad did. Becky’s face drooped, and she blew cigarette smoke through her nose. “It doesn’t matter.”

“Can you tell me his name?” Emma tried, but Becky wouldn’t answer. Shortly after that conversation, Emma went through a phase pretending that various men they met on their endless travels—Becky could never hold down a job for long—might secretly be her father. Raymond, the gas station cashier who slipped Emma a few free Tootsie Rolls with her purchase. Dr. Norris, the ER doctor who stitched up her knee when she fell on the playground. Al, a neighbor in their apartment complex who waved to Emma every morning. Emma pictured one of these men scooping her up, swinging her around, and taking her to the local Dairy Queen. But it never happened.

A barrage of moments came to me: my dad and me sitting at a table at a blues club, listening to a band play. My dad and me on a mountain trail, binoculars to our faces, watching birds. Me falling off my bike and running inside, searching for my dad to comfort me. I had a feeling my dad and I had had a special bond at one point in our lives. Suddenly, in light of what Emma went through, I felt lucky to have all those memories. But now my dad didn’t even know I was gone.

Emma leaned over the motorcycle, inspecting it carefully. “Why is the shifter on the wrong side?”

Mr. Mercer blinked at her, as if Emma had suddenly started speaking Swahili. “Actually, it’s not. This is a British bike. Before 1975, the gearshift was on the right side.” He laughed uncomfortably. “I thought your interest in cars stopped with 1960s Volvos.”