Chapters (47)
- Cover
- Dedication
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- 2 Months Later
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Books by Kasie West
- Back Ad
- About the Publisher
My mom left, and I shut my bedroom door, then fell back onto my bed with a groan. My mom was right: the charity dinner was where I should go. But I couldn’t help but think that being at the awards banquet would be important for the next year of swimming. For making sure Coach knew I wasn’t just in this for me, that I supported the team. But my parents were important to me too. Why was this so hard?
I reached for my phone. I needed to talk to Amelia about this. She’d tell me what to do. I swiped across the screen of my phone. The direct message notification reminded me I had a message waiting. Instead of calling Amelia, I found myself clicking on the envelope icon.
Turns out I didn’t want to swim again last night.
I stared at the message. Was he trying to get a reaction or was that his backward way of saying I didn’t have to worry about him messing up a swim meet again? I thought about ignoring him but then typed: Control the urge for the final meet this year and I will have no problems with you.
As I moved to exit out of the screen, I saw the three dots showing he was responding. I waited until it buzzed through.
So that is the only problem you have with me?
Was he looking for validation? He’d come to the wrong place. I typed back: That is the only thing I care about.
Swimming?
I narrowed my eyes. No, you disrupting my swimming.
Good to know.
Who are you? I needed to know who to avoid in real life.
I thought you already knew.
I knew he didn’t really believe that. I’d given myself away at the museum when I’d chased him down and demanded his identity. No, you didn’t. So . . . who are you?
Nice try.
What’s it take to find out?
A need.
What does that even mean? I asked.
If you don’t know what it means, then you don’t have it.
We’re talking in riddles now?
He didn’t respond right away, and I found myself refreshing the page to make sure the site hadn’t frozen. When nothing happened, I got up and pulled a pair of socks out of my dresser. I went to put on a sweatshirt and realized it was Robert’s. I had forgotten to return it. I loved this sweatshirt and not because it was Robert’s—well, maybe a little because it was his—but because it was comfortable.