Contents (32)
- Miss Mackenzie
- Table of Contents
- Chapter I. The Mackenzie Family
- Chapter II. Miss Mackenzie Goes to Littlebath
- Chapter III. Miss Mackenzie’s First Acquaintances
- Chapter IV. Miss Mackenzie Commences Her Career
- Chapter V. Showing How Mr Rubb, Junior, Progressed at Littlebath
- Chapter VI. Miss Mackenzie Goes to the Cedars
- Chapter VII. Miss Mackenzie Leaves the Cedars
- Chapter VIII. Mrs Tom Mackenzie’s Dinner Party
- Chapter IX. Miss Mackenzie’s Philosophy
- Chapter X. Plenary Absolutions
- Chapter XI. Miss Todd Entertains Some Friends at Tea
- Chapter XII. Mrs Stumfold Interferes
- Chapter XIII. Mr Maguire’s Courtship
- Chapter XIV. Tom Mackenzie’s Bed-Side
- Chapter XV. The Tearing of the Verses
- Chapter XVI. Lady Ball’s Grievance
- Chapter XVII. Mr Slow’s Chambers
- Chapter XVIII. Tribulation
- Chapter XIX. Showing How Two of Miss Mackenzie’s Lovers Behaved
- Chapter XX. Showing How the Third Lover Behaved
- Chapter XXI. Mr Maguire Goes to London on Business
- Chapter XXII. Still at the Cedars
- Chapter XXIII. The Lodgings of Mrs Buggins, Née Protheroe
- Chapter XXIV. The Little Story of the Lion and the Lamb
- Chapter XXV. Lady Ball in Arundel Street
- Chapter XXVI. Mrs Mackenzie of Cavendish Square
- Chapter XXVII. The Negro Soldiers’ Orphan Bazaar
- Chapter XXVIII. Showing How the Lion Was Stung by the Wasp
- Chapter XXIX. A Friend in Need Is a Friend Indeed
- Chapter XXX. Conclusion
For my part I think that he said what he had to say very well. I do not know that he could have done it much better. I do not know that any other form of words would have been more persuasive to the woman he was addressing. Had he said much of his love, or nothing of his poverty; or had he omitted altogether any mention of her wealth, her heart would have gone against him at once. As it was he had produced in her mind such a state of doubt, that she was unable to answer him on the moment.
“I know,” he went on to say, “that I haven’t much to offer you.” He had now seated himself again, and as he spoke he looked upon the ground.
“It isn’t that, John,” she answered; “you have much more to give than I have a right to expect.”
“No,” he said. “What I offer you is a life of endless trouble and care. I know all about it myself. It’s all very well to talk of a competence and a big house, and if you were to take me, perhaps we might keep the old place on and furnish it again, and my mother thinks a great deal about the title. For my part I think it’s only a nuisance when a man has not got a fortune with it, and I don’t suppose it will be any pleasure to you to be called Lady Ball. You’d have a life of fret and worry, and would not have half so much money to spend as you have now. I know all that, and have thought a deal about it before I could bring myself to speak to you. But, Margaret, you would have duties which would, I think, in themselves, have a pleasure for you. You would know what to do with your life, and would be of inestimable value to many people who would love you dearly. As for me, I never saw any other woman whom I could bring myself to offer as a mother to my children.” All this he said looking down at the floor, in a low, dull, droning voice, as though every sentence spoken were to have been the last. Then he paused, looked into her face for a moment, and after that, allowed his eyes again to fall on the ground.
Margaret was, of course, aware that she must make him some answer, and she was by no means prepared to give him one that would be favourable. Indeed, she thought she knew that she could not marry him, because she felt that she did not love him with affection of the sort which would be due to a husband. She told herself that she must refuse his offer. But yet she wanted time, and above all things, she wished to find words which would not be painful to him. His dull droning voice, and the honest recital of his troubles, and of her troubles if she were to share his lot, had touched her more nearly than any vows of love would have done. When he told her of the heavy duties which might fall to her lot as his wife, he almost made her think that it might be well for her to marry him, even though she did not love him. “I hardly know how to answer you, you have taken me so much by surprise,” she said.