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Chapters (54)
  1. Miles Errant
  2. Lois McMaster Bujold
  3. "THE BORDERS OF INFINITY"
  4. Brothers in Arms
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. Mirror Dance
  22. CHAPTER ONE
  23. CHAPTER TWO
  24. CHAPTER THREE
  25. CHAPTER FOUR
  26. CHAPTER FIVE
  27. CHAPTER SIX
  28. CHAPTER SEVEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHT
  30. CHAPTER NINE
  31. CHAPTER TEN
  32. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  33. CHAPTER TWELVE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  35. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  36. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  37. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  38. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  39. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  40. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  44. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  45. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  46. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  47. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  48. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  49. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  50. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

What kind of twisted ethics drove Lotus Durona, to make of this girl an imitation-willing sacrifice? Who did Lotus think she was fooling? Only herself, apparently.

"Besides," said Lilly Junior. "I thought you liked that fat blonde. You were squirming all over her."

"Who?"

"Oh, that's right. That must have been your clone-twin."

"My brother," he corrected automatically. What was this story, Mark?

She was getting relaxed, now, reconciled to her strange captivity. And bored. She looked at him speculatively. "Would you like to kiss me again?" she inquired.

It was his height. It brought out the beast in women. Unthreatened, they became bold. He normally considered it a quite delightful effect, but this girl worried him. She was not his . . . equal. But he had to kill time, keep her in here, keep her entertained for as long as possible. "Well . . . all right. . . ."

After about twenty minutes of tame and decorous necking, she drew back and remarked, "That's not the way the Baron does it."

"What do you do for Vasa Luigi?"

She unfastened his trouser-strings and started to show him. After about a minute, he choked, "Stop!"

"Don't you like it? The Baron does."

"I'm sure." Dreadfully aroused, he fled to the chair by the little dining table, and scrunched himself up in it. "That's, um, very nice, Lilly, but it's too serious for you and me."

"I don't understand."

"Just exactly so." She was a child, despite her grown-up body, he was increasingly certain of it. "When you are older . . . you will find your own boundaries. And you can invite people across them as you choose. Right now you scarcely know where you leave off and the world begins. Desire should flow from within, not be imposed from without." He tried to choke off his own flow by sheer will-power, half-successfully. Vasa Luigi, you scum.

She frowned thoughtfully. "I'm not going to be older."

He wrapped his arms around his drawn-up knees and shuddered. Hell.

He suddenly remembered how he'd met Sergeant Taura. How they had become lovers, in that desperate hour. Ah, ambushed again by the pot-holes in his memory. There were certain obvious parallels with his current situation; it must be why his subconscious was trying to apply the old successful solution. But Taura was a bioengineered mutation, short-lived. The Dendarii medicos had stolen her a little more time with metabolic adjustments, but not much. Every day was a gift, each year a miracle. She was living her whole life as a smash-and-grab, and he heartily approved. Lilly Junior could live a century, if she wasn't . . . cannibalized. She needed to be seduced to life, not sex.

Like integrity, love of life was not a subject to be studied, it was a contagion to be caught. And you had to catch it from someone who had it. "Don't you want to live?" he asked her.

"I . . . don't know."

"I do. I want to live. And believe me, I have considered the alternative deeply."