Back Meet Me in Another Life
Chapters (27)
  1. Title Page
  2. Map
  3. Dedication
  4. Part I
  5. Welcome to Forever
  6. Open Your Eyes
  7. No Going Back
  8. Love Is War
  9. Meant to Be
  10. Part II
  11. Not Enough Sky
  12. A Better World
  13. We Are Here
  14. Till Next Time
  15. Look Behind You
  16. Part III
  17. The Vanishing Now
  18. Never Means Never
  19. Nothing to Lose
  20. Follow the Light
  21. Who We Are
  22. In the Stars
  23. Only One Choice
  24. Acknowledgments
  25. About the Author
  26. Copyright
  27. About the Publisher

After a pause, she pulls the door open with her foot. She’s lying on the bed, Félicette purring beside her. Thora stares up at her ceiling, fingers braced on her wrist. “The stars,” she says. “They match the ones in the sky.”

Santi feels a glow of approval: his daughter is a scientist. “Yes! I wanted them to make real constellations.”

She tilts her head. “Do they look like that from space?”

“No. No, they would look completely different. Someone from a different planet probably wouldn’t even put the same stars in constellations with each other.”

Thora frowns. “Don’t they belong together?”

“Not really. Ancient people just thought they did because they made pictures.” He shrugs. “That’s what humans do, I guess. Look up at the sky and see reflections of themselves.”

“Themselves?” she says with a snort. “You mean ourselves? Or are you saying you’re not human?”

“Blorgle fnarg,” he replies.

Thora laughs, too loud to suppress. Santi feels a brief, intense high.

“It’s like us,” she says.

“What?” he asks with a smile.

“You and me and Héloïse. From far away we look like a family, but really we have nothing to do with each other.”

The high crashes. Santi thinks of the three of them, he and Héloïse tightly bound binary stars, Thora drifting somewhere light-years away.

“The truth is, perspective is everything,” he says finally. “We choose how we want to look at things.” He taps the doorframe and leaves before she can see him crying.

The season changes. The bonsai tree Héloïse has been trying to train overspills its pot, growing out of control and wild. It brings a matching change in Thora. Or the change happens, the tree grows, and neither of these has anything to do with the other. Santi has always scanned the world this way, reading it for symbols. It means he is not surprised the day he comes home to find his mother’s crochet blanket on the living-room floor, a black hole burned in its center.

Héloïse isn’t home yet; two trams collided today in the old town, and the emergency-room staff are working overtime. Santi picks up the blanket and walks slowly up the stairs. Calm, he says to himself, remembering what the social worker told him. Always try and deal with her calmly. His thoughts wander away from the script. She’s the sea; she needs a rock to crash against.

He knocks on Thora’s door. She doesn’t tell him to come in. She just nudges the door with her foot, watches him push it all the way open.

Santi sits down at her desk chair, holding the blanket between his hands. He thinks about his mother patiently making it, the love in every centimeter. Rage rises up, but he controls it. “My mother made this,” he says.