Chapters (27)
- Title Page
- Map
- Dedication
- Part I
- Welcome to Forever
- Open Your Eyes
- No Going Back
- Love Is War
- Meant to Be
- Part II
- Not Enough Sky
- A Better World
- We Are Here
- Till Next Time
- Look Behind You
- Part III
- The Vanishing Now
- Never Means Never
- Nothing to Lose
- Follow the Light
- Who We Are
- In the Stars
- Only One Choice
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
“Oh, yes. Santi.” Brigitta shrugs. “He hasn’t been here for a long time. He stopped coming about the same time you did.”
Thora slumps in her seat as Brigitta goes back behind the bar. So much for her attempt to start again, to make a different choice this time. She ran away because she felt like the universe was pushing her into something. Now, it is pushing her the opposite way, and she resents it all the more.
“Fuck it,” she says, downs the rest of her wine, catches a tram to the Belgian Quarter, and climbs the stairs of Santi’s building to knock on his door.
It opens a crack. “Félicette, no,” she hears him say, and her heart goes supernova. When he finally opens the door and sees her, he doesn’t speak. He just exhales, a sound that could be relief or disappointment, and lets her inside. “You want some coffee?”
“Tea, if you have it,” says Thora, following him into the kitchen.
Santi opens cupboards, looks through neatly stacked boxes and tins. “I think Héloïse left some before she moved out.”
Thora notes the name. Flatmate? Ex-girlfriend? She pulls out a barstool and sits down. “So you’re probably wondering why I left to get coffee and never came back.”
Santi folds his arms, leaning back against the worktop. “I mean, I had a theory. But that theory doesn’t explain why you’re here now.”
“What was your theory?”
He shrugs. “You didn’t like me enough.”
“No. That’s not it.”
Santi’s brow furrows. “Then I go to theory two, which is that the coffee shop got sucked into another dimension, and you only just now managed to escape and find your way back.”
“Close.” She smiles. “But no. The problem was I liked you too much.”
The kettle boils. Santi goes to pour the water. “You’re going to have to explain that to me.”
Thora bites her lip, searching for the words. “Do you ever feel like the universe is trying to push you into something? Like it’s what’s supposed to happen, and you’re just meant to let it?”
Santi takes out the teabag, smiling. “Not often enough.”
“I felt that. As soon as I met you, almost.” She crosses her arms. “And that’s exactly why I left. Because I didn’t trust that feeling. Not one bit. I hate being told what to do.”
He crosses to her, hands her the cup of tea. “Even by fate?”
“Especially by fate.” From where she’s sitting, he’s taller than her. She looks up into his eyes. “But now, I’ve decided. The universe isn’t pushing me into this. I’m choosing it.”