She’d met some acquaintances for coffee after mass, socially prominent friends from her brief marriage. How would they react if she introduced them to Bodie? Just the thought made her headache worse. Bodie inhabited a secret compartment in her life, a sordid, perverted chamber she could never let anyone peer into. He’d left two messages on her machine this week, but she hadn’t returned either of them, not until today. An hour ago, she’d given in to temptation and dialed his number, then hung up before he could answer. If she could get one good night’s sleep, she’d stop obsessing about him. Maybe she’d even be able to stop worrying so much about Heath and the feeling that her business was falling apart.

The power saw shrieked again, drilling through her temples. Before her marriage, she’d had her share of affairs. More than a few of them had brought her unhappiness, but none of them had degraded her. Which was what Bodie had done last week. He’d degraded her. And she’d let him do it.

Because it hadn’t felt degrading.

That’s what she couldn’t understand. That’s why her insomnia was growing unmanageable, why she hadn’t been able to unwind during the mass, and why she’d forgotten last week’s weigh-in. Because what he’d done had felt almost tender.

The columns on the computer monitor swam before her eyes, and hammering replaced the sound of the power saw. She had to get out of here. If she were still mentoring, she could have met with one of the women. Maybe she’d stop at the health club, or call Betsy Waits to see if she wanted to meet for dinner. But instead of doing either of those things, she returned her attention to the data on her screen. She had to prove to herself that she was still the best, and the only way she could do that was to find Heath’s match.

The hammering turned to rapping, but not until it had become louder and more insistent did she realize it wasn’t coming from overhead. She left her desk and made her way into the reception area. She was still dressed in the short, off-white Burberry jacket and Bottega Veneta slacks she’d worn to mass, but she’d kicked off her shoes while she worked, and she moved soundlessly across the carpet. Through the frosted glass, she made out a man’s broad-shouldered form. “Who is it?”

A tough, flat voice replied. “The man of your dreams.”

She squeezed her eyes shut and told herself not to open the door. This wasn’t good for her. He wasn’t good for her. But a dark, dissonant chorus overcame her willpower. She turned the lock. “I’m working.”

“I’ll watch.”

“You’ll be bored to tears.” She stepped aside and let him in.

Muscle-bound men usually looked better in workout gear than street clothes, but not Bodie Gray. His chinos and tailored French blue shirt fit his body to perfection. He gazed at the reception area, taking in the cool green walls and Zen-like furnishings, but saying nothing. She refused to let him play another of his silent games. “How did you know I was here?”