“Never,” I say. “Knowing you’ve seen all my nastiest parts and that you still love me? That’s the kindest thing in the world. It doesn’t weird me out, I promise. But I do understand if this has to change some things for you.”

Cleo sighs, stepping out of my hug. “Maybe some things, once we get to college. But I have a feeling that will happen on its own.”

College. I still can’t believe, in a matter of days, our whole world is going to change. I’m still so thankful Cleo is going to be on the same island as me when we take this next step, even if there might be some new distance between us.

“Besides, I always want you in my life,” Cleo adds. “That will never change.”

“I couldn’t agree more,” I respond. “Though you know, you’re totally going to meet someone who worships the ground you walk on. Someone who sees how stylish and beautiful and brave and insightful you are. And I will be cheering that person on every second.”

Cleo actually blushes, hearing all this.

“You will, too, Amelia. Just because Anwar was a jerk, it doesn’t mean they all will be.”

I nod at Cleo. They’re right, but I also know how much work I have to do before the next guy comes along. Like, what if every time I feel like I’m not good enough, I tell myself I am? Or what if every time I inevitably fixate on a part of my body I hate, I focus on a part I love instead? What if every time I pull at myself with panic because I’m not perfect, I tell myself it’s okay to be a bundle of mess?

If Cleo can see all that in me, why can’t I?

Whatever the answers, these are all questions for tomorrow and the next chapters to come. Today, I’m just grateful for my friends, every single one of them.

“Here come the boys,” Cleo says, turning to glance downhill. “But hey, before they get here—did I hear you say I’m your best friend?”

“Yes, you did,” I say, grinning again. “A person can have more than one best friend, I think. But if it matters, you’ve got the title. You always have.”

Despite the heaviness of this moment, Cleo still manages to smile, shining bright.

“Deal,” they say. “Though maybe let’s not mention it to Chase anytime soon?”

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When we reach our destination, there’s no second-guessing we have arrived. First, we come upon a plateau at the peak of the trail that overlooks the sweeping valley below. Standing shoulder to shoulder to take in this view, the four of us all together, I already feel accomplished. It’s one truly perfect moment, but it’s not built to last. There’s too much still left to do.