Back Locked Doors

The warmth of the house envelops him as he closes and relocks the backdoor.  He stands in the kitchen holding the dead boy in his arms, the linoleum Kool-Aid-sticky beneath his feet.

The sink blooms with dishes.

The odor of burnt popcorn permeates the air.

Two greasy Tupperware bowls sit on the Formica table beside him, the unexploded kernels still pooled in the bottom.

The liquid crystal display on the stove turns to 1:39.

He hesitates, listening: the muted breath of warm air murmurs up through vents in the floor.  A water droplet falls every fifteen seconds from the faucet into a slowly filling wineglass and in another room the second hand of a clock ticks just on the edge of audible.  The refrigerator hums soothingly.  As the icemaker releases new cubes into the bin, the sound is like a great glacier shelf calving into the sea.

Luther kneels down, stows the boy beneath the table.  Then he moves on into the dining room, turns right, and passes through a wide archway into the den.

Plushycushioned furniture has been arranged in a semicircle around the undeniable focal point of the room: a gargantuan television with satellite speakers positioned strategically in every corner for a maximum auditory experience.  A third Tupperware bowl has been abandoned between two pillows on the floor.  Bending down, he scoops out a handful of popcorn and crams it into his mouth.

He walks to the edge of the hallway, eyes still adjusting to the navy darkness.  The electronic snoring of the kitchen cannot be heard from this corridor of the house.  But there are other sounds: the toilet runs; a showerhead drips onto ceramic; three human beings breathe heavily in oblivious comfort.  Beneath this soundtrack of suburban sleep the central heating whispers on and on, safe as his mother’s heartbeat.

Luther stands in the hallway scraping chunks of popcorn from his molars, thinking, They need this noise.  They would go mad without it.  They think this is silence…they have never known silence.

He steps through the first doorway on the right, a bathroom.  Opening the medicine cabinet above the sink, he takes out a box of grape-flavored dental floss.  When his teeth are clean to his satisfaction he returns the floss to its shelf and closes the cabinet.  Stepping back into the hall he tiptoes across the carpet into the first room on the left.

A black and orange sticker on the door reads “Private—Keep Out!” and below it in stenciled characters: “Hank’s Hideout.”

The room is tidy—no toys on the floor, beanbags pushed into the corners.

A dozen model airplanes and helicopters hang by wires from the ceiling.

A B-25 sits near completion on a desk.  Only the wings and the ball turret remain to be affixed.

He smells the glue.

A bevy of Little League trophies lines the top of a dresser, each golden plastic boy facing the bed, frozen in midswing.  Luther reads the engraving on the base of one of the trophies.