Back Instead of the Thorn
Chapters (33)
  1. Chapter One
  2. Chapter Two
  3. Chapter Three
  4. Chapter Four
  5. Chapter Five
  6. Chapter Six
  7. Chapter Seven
  8. Chapter Eight
  9. Chapter Nine
  10. Chapter Ten
  11. Chapter Eleven
  12. Chapter Twelve
  13. Chapter Thirteen
  14. Chapter Fourteen
  15. Chapter Fifteen
  16. Chapter Sixteen
  17. Chapter Seventeen
  18. Chapter Eighteen
  19. Chapter Nineteen
  20. Chapter Twenty
  21. Chapter Twenty-One
  22. Chapter Twenty-Two
  23. Chapter Twenty-Three
  24. Chapter Twenty-Four
  25. Chapter Twenty-Five
  26. Chapter Twenty-Six
  27. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  28. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  29. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  30. Chapter Thirty
  31. Chapter Thirty-One
  32. Chapter Thirty-Two
  33. Chapter Thirty-Three

There was heavy breathing on the stairs, a murmur of voices; she heard Mrs. Cotton say how the stairs ketched her in the wind, her having a weak heart and that. A deeper voice, that sent the blood rushing to Elizabeth’s face, answered. Then the knock fell on the door.

Elizabeth tried to say come in, but could not. Mrs. Cotton came without invitation, and in a voice which breathed rampant curiosity, said,

“Here’s your ’usband, ma’am. Mr. Ramsay.”

Elizabeth managed to speak.

“Thank you.”

Mrs. Cotton held the door for Stephen to pass through, then, reluctantly, shut it. Stephen came in with his clean stride and stopped just inside the door, facing Elizabeth.

In that brief moment, when both stood wretchedly tongue-tied, Elizabeth saw the sprinkling of grey in the hair above Stephen’s temples, and the tiny lines about his eyes. He was pale, and his lips were shut tight in a way she knew well. Foolishly, she noticed that he was wearing a suit that she had not seen before.

Stephen broke the silence, holding out muddied hands. He spoke with unnatural matter-of-factness, in jerks that betrayed his embarrassment.

“I—beg your pardon, Elizabeth, but—a tire burst. Can I—wash? I’m—so sorry.”

She thought, What a queer way for our interview to begin! but some of her fright left her, and she stepped forward.

“Yes, of course. I—I quite understand. C-come into my bedroom.”

“Thanks.” He waited for her to go first, and then followed her in. She remembered how uncomfortable Wendell had made her feel; it seemed perfectly natural for Stephen to be here. Yet once she had not thought so. She picked up the water-jug; Stephen took it from her.

“Don’t bother, dear.” He poured water into the basin, and began to wash his hands. She saw that they were unsteady, and grew calmer. She held the towel ready for him to use; in silence he dried his hands. Then they went back into the other room, and Elizabeth stammered,

“S-sit down, won’t you? I—you’ll—er—stay to tea— with me?”

Gravely he answered.

“It rather depends—on what you’re going to say to me, Elizabeth. Your letter—didn’t tell me much.”

“I—there’s a great deal—I must say. I—I am trying—but it’s difficult. There’s—there’s so much, you see.”

“Do I—make it difficult for you?” he asked gently.

“No. I—I expect it’s my own stupidity.” She smiled wanly. “I’m not so stupid as I was, Stephen. I—I couldn’t be, could I?”

He did not answer. She stared into the fire, and tried to steady her voice.

“I—I want to tell you, Stephen, that—if you still want me—I’ll come back to you.”