Back Instead of the Thorn
Chapters (33)
  1. Chapter One
  2. Chapter Two
  3. Chapter Three
  4. Chapter Four
  5. Chapter Five
  6. Chapter Six
  7. Chapter Seven
  8. Chapter Eight
  9. Chapter Nine
  10. Chapter Ten
  11. Chapter Eleven
  12. Chapter Twelve
  13. Chapter Thirteen
  14. Chapter Fourteen
  15. Chapter Fifteen
  16. Chapter Sixteen
  17. Chapter Seventeen
  18. Chapter Eighteen
  19. Chapter Nineteen
  20. Chapter Twenty
  21. Chapter Twenty-One
  22. Chapter Twenty-Two
  23. Chapter Twenty-Three
  24. Chapter Twenty-Four
  25. Chapter Twenty-Five
  26. Chapter Twenty-Six
  27. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  28. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  29. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  30. Chapter Thirty
  31. Chapter Thirty-One
  32. Chapter Thirty-Two
  33. Chapter Thirty-Three

“I’ll never believe that. I’ve made you think so with my damned temper. Together we—could make it a success. Ah, Elizabeth, we could! Forget what I said, and let’s start afresh! Elizabeth, you must! I can’t possibly let you go like this! You don’t understand!”

“Oh, don’t, don’t! Don’t make me! Please don’t make me!”

Words, arguments rained about her. She listened, quivering, to Stephen’s pleading, his reasoning, even his anger. At last, looking drearily up at him, she said,

“If—if you make me come back now—I think I shall die. Leave me—just for a little while!”

That was cheating. Gaining time—putting him off with false hopes. She would never go back, only she could not tell him so. He would find out in time.

Her words gave him pause. In silence he paced the room, thinking, thinking. He could see that Elizabeth was beside herself; he could see too that for the moment at least she was in deadly fear of him, fear and repulsion. All his thoughts were concentrated on the determination to save this marriage of theirs from the rocks. The look of weakening despair on Elizabeth’s face cut him to the quick, but he realised that she was in earnest. He could not believe that she would always be so. He would not believe that. The other day he had driven her to desperate, incontinent flight by anger, and by precipitate action. He must be careful now; he would do nothing to drive her further from him. In anger he had uttered threats which he would never have carried out. It was not in his nature to coerce the thing he loved most. He would never have done so, only she did not know that and he could not convince her. In her present mood she was capable of any madness; he would not drive her to it. He clung to the hope that time would soften her, and make her wiser. Just now it would be cruel to force her against her will. Cruel and perhaps disastrous. She would come back to him if he insisted; he knew that. But the spiritual part of her would go farther and farther away. That might never come back. How easily could he ruin everything now!

She was frightened, watching him with great, apprehensive eyes. Pity for her helplessness and her fear took possession of him. After all, she was hardly more than a child. She must be comforted, re-assured.

He went to her, and sat down beside her, taking her hand. The hardness had gone from his face, and when he spoke his voice was quiet, free from that disturbing passion.

“All right, Elizabeth. Don’t look so scared. Listen to me, dear.”

Her hand lay passive in his; her eyes did not waver from his face.