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“No.” Sybill’s stomach clenched reflexively. “We’re not terribly close. Excuse me.” She pushed away from the table. “Can I use the bathroom?”
“Sure. Down the hall, first door on the left.” Anna waited until Sybill walked out, then pursed her lips at Grace. “I can’t decide what I think about her.”
“She seems a little uncomfortable.”
Anna shrugged her shoulders. “Well, I guess we’ll have to wait and see, won’t we?”
In the little powder room off the hall, Sybill splashed water on her face. She was hot, nervous, and vaguely sick to her stomach. She didn’t understand this family, she thought. They were loud, occasionally crude, pieced together from different origins. Yet they seemed happy, at ease with each other, and very affectionate.
As she patted her face dry, she met her own eyes in the mirror. Her family had never been loud or crude. Except for those ugly moments when Gloria had pushed the limits. Just now she couldn’t honestly say for certain if they had ever been happy, ever been at ease with each other. And affection had never been a priority or something that was expressed in an overt manner.
It was simply that none of them were very emotional people, she told herself. She had always been more cerebral, out of inclination, she decided, and in defense against Gloria’s baffling volatility. Life was calmer if one depended on the intellect. She knew that. Believed that absolutely.
But it was her emotions that were churning now. She felt like a liar, a spy, a sneak. Reminding herself that she was doing what she was doing for the welfare of a child helped. Telling herself that the child was her own nephew and she had every right to be there, to form opinions, soothed.
Objectivity, she told herself, pressing her fingertips against her temples to smother the nagging ache. That’s what would get her through until she’d gathered all the facts, all the data, and formed her opinion.
She stepped out quietly and took the few steps down the hall toward the blaring noise of the ball game. She saw Seth sprawled on the floor at Cam’s feet and shouting abuse at the set across the room. Cam was gesturing with his beer and arguing the last call with Phillip. Ethan simply watched the game, with Aubrey curled in his lap, dozing despite the noise.
The room itself was homey, slightly shabby, and appeared comfortable. A piano was angled out from the corner. A vase of zinnias and dozens of small-framed snapshots crowded its polished surface. A half empty bowl of potato chips sat at Seth’s elbow. The rug was littered with crumbs, shoes, the Sunday paper, and a grubby, well-gnawed hunk of rope.
The light had faded, but no one had bothered to switch on a lamp.
She started to step back, but Phillip glanced over. Smiled. Held out a hand. She walked to him, let him draw her down to the arm of his chair. “Bottom of the ninth,” he murmured. “We’re up by one.”