Back I Hope You Stay
Chapters (11)
  1. Also by Courtney Peppernell
  2. Acknowledgments
  3. Contents
  4. You will ache
  5. You will dream
  6. You will love
  7. You will heal
  8. You will rise
  9. Thank You
  10. Copyright
  11. Other titles from AMP

What you dream of, the things you want to achieve, are as valid as you make them to be.

She was always in a faraway place; even in a crowded space, she was somewhere else. Thinking of other lives and how they may interconnect with hers. She dreamed of fields of flowers and running waterfalls, of sunlight falling over a face she would one day come home to. She planted feelings in potted plants and wore dresses the color of lilac. She loved harder than anyone I ever knew. She is the warmth of the fire when nights are cold. She is the person you want by your side, together as you grow old.

I hope when you fall, you have a soft landing, but even if you don’t and it takes time for you to find your feet, know that you are worth every step.

She dreams of that voice, the one that calls to ask about her day. The way it sounds, even from far away, how it makes her sigh and her heart fill with color. That voice could never compare to another.

Fill your life with people who make you strive. Always thinking of the next day, always wanting to create, to challenge yourself. People who motivate you to keep going are important.

I think of you in the early hours of the morning, as the day is just beginning. I think of what we can be, together as one, as vast and as beautiful as the sky can be.

What I have come to know more than anything is that my soul grows and changes. There are moments it feels full, and others empty, but it continues forward, moving with every step I take in this life.

You will never be understood by everyone. Most people are still trying to understand themselves. The things you want to achieve are yours, and the people who try to push you into a corner aren’t worth having in your life.

We always remember the ones who hurt us, who ruined our expectations or let us down. Perhaps, as we grow older, it’s better to remember the ones who helped us. Even if they aren’t around anymore, even if life got in the way or reasons out of our control meant we were just destined to spend a fraction of time together. We should remember how they made us feel, how they helped shaped us too, and we should carry that with us, in everything we do.

You still struggle some days with the idea of what you could have become versus what you are. But what you are is everything. What you are can be grown. Keep growing.