But mostly, he did it to find a way to clear his mind, keep focused, and not fuck things up by moving too fast with Cher.

As he rode in, he saw that he may have managed to get through another day without fucking things up with Cher, but he had another problem he thought he’d sorted, which, apparently, he had not.

He swung off the bike, but she was already out of her Rover and heading his way.

He didn’t look at her when he started across the parking lot, but he felt her.

“This isn’t happening,” he stated.

“Merry, please,” she begged. “Give me a second.”

He kept walking.

“I screwed up,” she declared.

She fucking did.

He made no reply, he just kept walking.

He felt her hurrying after him, her short legs no match for his long ones.

“I thought it was you. The way you’d ended us, I thought it had to be you,” she told him.

At the foot of the ugly concrete steps, with their unattractive iron railing that would lead him to the concrete landing that would take him to his shitty-ass condo, not a pot of flowers in sight, nothing to make that place look like anyone gave a shit, he stopped and turned to her.

“Go home, Mia.”

She stared up at him, her pretty face twisted and pleading.

“I gave you opportunity after opportunity,” she whispered.

Oh no.

They weren’t doing this before.

They sure as fuck weren’t going to do it now.

“Go home,” he repeated.

She reached out a hand, but when his eyes dropped to it, she halted its progress.

He looked back to her.

“I kept coming to you, but you never did anything,” she declared.

So he’d been wrong the other night, right the rest of the time—that had been her game.

Regardless, it was fucked up and damaging, wasting time and causing harm when the bitch should have just said something.

At that point, however, it didn’t matter. They were over, so going through this wasn’t worth his time.

“Say it one more time,” he warned. “Go home.”

“I see now,” she said quietly, eyes glued to his, imploring. “I made the first move. Kept making the first move, over and over. But maybe I should have made the second one too. Maybe you needed that from me. Maybe with…” Her eyes started drifting, but she put visible effort into forcing them back. “With the way things were with your family…” She rubbed her lips together quickly before going on. “With your mom, I should have had a mind to what was going on in yours.”

Cher’s words slammed into his head.

You got good, you don’t let it go. It lets you go, you hold on. It slips through your fingers, you pull out all the stops to get it back. You got somethin’ worth fighting for, you fight for it.

Mia was right.

It was him who had fucked them up.