Chapters (29)
- HER BENNY
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- Contents
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- Preface
- Chapter I - Brother and Sister
- Chapter II - Addler's Hall
- Chapter III - Roughing It
- Chapter IV - A Friend in Need
- Chapter V - "Oh, Death! What Does Thou Mean?"
- Chapter VI - In Which Benny Makes a Discovery
- Chapter VII - Two Visits
- Chapter VIII - In Which Joe Wrag Has a Vision
- Chapter IX - Tempted
- Chapter X - In the Woods
- Chapter XI - Benny Prays
- Chapter XII - Fading Away
- Chapter XIII - The Tide Turns
- Chapter XIV - A Glimpse of Paradise
- Chapter XV - A Terrible Alternative
- Chapter XVI - An Experiment
- Chapter XVII - Perks Again
- Chapter XVIII - Adrift
- Chapter XIX - The Border Land
- Chapter XX - Life at the Farm
- Chapter XXI - An Accident
- Chapter XXII - Recognition
- Chapter XXIII - The Question Settled
- Chapter XXIV - The Reward of Well-Doing
"If I could only believe that there was the smallest hope o' my ever getting to heaven," he muttered, "it 'ud be easier to bear."
And he hid his face in his hands, while great tears dropped between his fingers to the floor.
"Bless her little heart!" he murmured; "she did not believe as how any wur excluded; she allers stuck to that word 'whosoever,' an' sometimes I wur inclined to think as how she wur right. I wonder, now, if she wur? for sartinly it looks the reasonabler.
"Bless me!" he said after a long pause, "I'm getting mortal shaky in my faith; I used to be firm as a rock. I wonder if it are my heart getting righter, or my head getting wrong. But I mun have a few more talks wi' the little hangel afore she goes."
As soon as Joe was liberated from his watch, he made his way direct to the Infirmary, and bitterly was he disappointed when told that he could not be admitted, and that if he wanted to see the child he must come again on the following day.
His heart was yearning for a sight of her face, and another day and night seemed such a long time to wait; but he turned away without a word, and went slowly home.
Evening found him again at his post of duty, and the next morning found him anxious and sad. The night had seemed so very long, and he was burning with impatience to get away.
The men came to work at length, and off he started with all possible speed. The porter at the door knew him again, and he was admitted without a word.
Nelly was expecting him; she knew it was visitors' day, and she was certain he would come, so she waited with closed eyes, listening for the footfall of her old friend.
She knew without looking up when he stooped beside her, and reached out her wasted hand, and drew down his weather-beaten wrinkled face and kissed him.
For a long time neither of them spoke. Joe felt if he attempted to utter a word it would choke him, for she was far more wasted than he expected to see her, and somehow he felt that that was the last time they would ever meet on earth.
Nelly was the first to break the silence.
"I's so glad you's come, Joe," she said simply.
"Are 'e, my honey?" said Joe, with a choking in his throat.
"Ay," she replied; "I wanted to see yer once more. You's been very good to me, Joe, and to Benny, an' I wanted to thank you afore I died."
"I dunna want thanks, honey," he said, sitting down in the one chair by her bedside, and hiding his face in his hands.