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  1. HER BENNY
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  3. Contents
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  5. Preface
  6. Chapter I - Brother and Sister
  7. Chapter II - Addler's Hall
  8. Chapter III - Roughing It
  9. Chapter IV - A Friend in Need
  10. Chapter V - "Oh, Death! What Does Thou Mean?"
  11. Chapter VI - In Which Benny Makes a Discovery
  12. Chapter VII - Two Visits
  13. Chapter VIII - In Which Joe Wrag Has a Vision
  14. Chapter IX - Tempted
  15. Chapter X - In the Woods
  16. Chapter XI - Benny Prays
  17. Chapter XII - Fading Away
  18. Chapter XIII - The Tide Turns
  19. Chapter XIV - A Glimpse of Paradise
  20. Chapter XV - A Terrible Alternative
  21. Chapter XVI - An Experiment
  22. Chapter XVII - Perks Again
  23. Chapter XVIII - Adrift
  24. Chapter XIX - The Border Land
  25. Chapter XX - Life at the Farm
  26. Chapter XXI - An Accident
  27. Chapter XXII - Recognition
  28. Chapter XXIII - The Question Settled
  29. Chapter XXIV - The Reward of Well-Doing

Benny always declared, however, that he learnt more than he ever taught. Up to the time that he commenced to teach, he had looked upon religion as stern, cold duty, and as that only; a question simply of doing or not doing. It is true that he heard occasionally sermons on the subject of experimental religion, but he thought it was only a way the preachers had of expressing themselves. He had no doubt that he was a Christian. He had been trying to be one ever since the death of his little Nell; he said his prayers regularly, and always tried to do his duty; and he asked himself what more could he do. Yet as he studied the New Testament carefully week by week, in order that he might instruct his class of boys, he became slowly conscious of the fact that feelings and experiences were hinted at in that Book of books that he was a stranger to. What did he know about that "peace that passeth understanding," or of "rejoicing with joy unspeakable"? Was his life "hid with Christ in God," and was he certain what was meant by "holding communion with God and fellowship with Christ"? He now began to pay more attention to the sermons that were preached, and to the hymns that were sung. One Sunday morning he stopped singing at the verse,

"Jesus, Thine all-victorious love
Shed in my heart abroad,
Then shall my feet no longer rove,
Rooted and fixed in God."

"What did it mean?" he asked himself, "this love shed abroad in the heart, inspiring the life, beautifying the character? Was religion as much a matter of love as of duty?" He heard nothing of the lesson that was read; but when the congregation stood up to sing again he was all attention. Slowly the words rang out, and filled the little sanctuary,

"Give me the faith which can remove
And sink the mountain to a plain;
Give me the child-like praying love
Which longs to build Thy house again;
Thy love, let it my heart o'erpower,
And all my simple soul devour.

"Enlarge, inflame, and fill my heart
With boundless charity divine!
So shall I all my strength exert,
And love them with a zeal like Thine
And lead them to Thy open side,
The sheep for whom the Shepherd died."

That hymn for the rest of the day became the burden of his prayer, and for many days after, though when the answer came, or how, Benny never knew. That it did come he had no doubt, for he discovered that religion was no longer the cold formal thing he had once imagined it to be, but a warm living something that filled his whole life. Duty now became a joy, because love inspired it. Loving God, he loved His service and loved His people; and at last he understood the words of the Master, "My meat is to do the will of Him that sent Me, and to finish His work."