Chapters (53)
- Title Page
- Copyright Page
- Contents
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Acknowledgments
- About the Authors
Eileen began to sit up, and the glass slipped from her grasp, bouncing off her lap and smashing into a million pieces on the quarry tiled floor. Her lap was full of water that dripped through her polyester skirt like she was straining it through muslin. The cat shot straight past them into the hall in a ginger blur of panic, and the sounds of broken glass and dripping water reverberated in Patrick’s ears. He knew he should get a cloth, a dustpan and brush, make soothing noises, but he didn’t want to break the spell. He was so close to it all making sense, finally.
‘Eileen?’
She turned to look at him then, her eyes rheumy and heart-broken.
‘Sean is – was – my actual son. My youngest child.’
Patrick opened his mouth to speak but she carried on, flicking ineffectually at the water in her lap with the side of her palm.
‘Yes I know I told you I only had one child. But I didn’t. I had Penny first, five years earlier in 1970. I didn’t mean to. I was only seventeen, and I was in love. I met her dad, Horace, at Butlins. He was the first black man I’d ever talked to. I didn’t mean to get pregnant of course, and I didn’t realize I was until I was six months gone, and so was Horace. Long gone, he was. I gave the baby up for adoption. My mum and dad were furious with me, ’specially when I admitted the baby would be half-caste. Oh, you can’t say that these days, can you? Mixed race. Load of bollocks . . .’
A trace of her spirit re-entered her voice, just a trace. Patrick sat back in horror, the implications of Eileen’s story slowly beginning to make sense.
‘Then what, Mrs Philips? Or is it OK for me to call you Eileen?’
Another brief nod. Patrick wordlessly handed her a tea-towel and she arranged it on her lap to soak up the water, like she was in a restaurant and it was a napkin.
‘I didn’t know,’ she said, her voice once more dropping to a whisper. ‘I didn’t know that her adoptive parents had called her Penny. I’d named her Tracey. I tried to forget about her, married Sean’s dad in ’73, had Sean the next year. He was a nice man. Hugh was his name. He died when Sean was seven, of an aneurysm. Never knew about Penny. I still miss him. Unlike that black bastard, excuse my French, but I never liked the coloureds after that.’
Patrick tried to hide a wince at the blatant racism.