Back From the Cradle
Chapters (53)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. Contents
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Acknowledgments
  53. About the Authors

Eileen began to sit up, and the glass slipped from her grasp, bouncing off her lap and smashing into a million pieces on the quarry tiled floor. Her lap was full of water that dripped through her polyester skirt like she was straining it through muslin. The cat shot straight past them into the hall in a ginger blur of panic, and the sounds of broken glass and dripping water reverberated in Patrick’s ears. He knew he should get a cloth, a dustpan and brush, make soothing noises, but he didn’t want to break the spell. He was so close to it all making sense, finally.

‘Eileen?’

She turned to look at him then, her eyes rheumy and heart-broken.

‘Sean is – was – my actual son. My youngest child.’

Patrick opened his mouth to speak but she carried on, flicking ineffectually at the water in her lap with the side of her palm.

‘Yes I know I told you I only had one child. But I didn’t. I had Penny first, five years earlier in 1970. I didn’t mean to. I was only seventeen, and I was in love. I met her dad, Horace, at Butlins. He was the first black man I’d ever talked to. I didn’t mean to get pregnant of course, and I didn’t realize I was until I was six months gone, and so was Horace. Long gone, he was. I gave the baby up for adoption. My mum and dad were furious with me, ’specially when I admitted the baby would be half-caste. Oh, you can’t say that these days, can you? Mixed race. Load of bollocks . . .’

A trace of her spirit re-entered her voice, just a trace. Patrick sat back in horror, the implications of Eileen’s story slowly beginning to make sense.

‘Then what, Mrs Philips? Or is it OK for me to call you Eileen?’

Another brief nod. Patrick wordlessly handed her a tea-towel and she arranged it on her lap to soak up the water, like she was in a restaurant and it was a napkin.

‘I didn’t know,’ she said, her voice once more dropping to a whisper. ‘I didn’t know that her adoptive parents had called her Penny. I’d named her Tracey. I tried to forget about her, married Sean’s dad in ’73, had Sean the next year. He was a nice man. Hugh was his name. He died when Sean was seven, of an aneurysm. Never knew about Penny. I still miss him. Unlike that black bastard, excuse my French, but I never liked the coloureds after that.’

Patrick tried to hide a wince at the blatant racism.