Her feelings for Peter had eroded so slowly over the years that there had barely been any left by the time it was over. But this . . . she squeezed her eyes tight, and though the air was still and warm, she shuddered.

She’d never loved anyone the way she loved Michael. Wildly, outrageously. Brutally. And all those feelings were so fresh. So bright and new. She had treasured them. She’d treasured discovering that she could feel again, realizing she could want and be wanted as a woman. She’d admired what he was, what he’d made himself, and she had fallen as much in love with the rough and dangerous man as the kind and gentle one within.

Now he wanted it over, and there was nothing she could do. Crying didn’t help, and her tears were already dry. Temper changed nothing, and she was already ashamed of the way she had snapped in front of him. He’d think her pitiful now, but that couldn’t be helped either.

She stepped closer to the edge to watch the waves beat against rock. She felt that way, she mused. Battered by forces that were beyond her control, trapped in a violent, endless war with no choice but to stand.

It didn’t help, it simply didn’t help, to tell herself she wasn’t alone. That she had her family, her children, her home, her work. Because she felt alone, completely alone, there on the edge of the world with only the thunder of the sea for company.

Even the birds were gone. No gulls cried today, none wheeled white toward the hard blue sky or dipped toward the spewing waves. She could see nothing but the rolling of the endless sea.

How could she accept it that she would never love this way again? Why was she expected to go on, to do everything that needed to be done, alone, always alone, and know that she would never turn in the night and find someone there who loved her?

Why had she been given this glimpse into what she could have and feel and want if it was only going to be taken away? And why was the one thing she had dreamed of all of her life always, always, just out of her reach?

She imagined that this was what Seraphina had felt as she stood here so many years before grieving the loss of her lover. Laura looked down, pictured that dizzying, somehow liberating plunge into space and the fierce, furious heart that had taken it.

Had she screamed as the rocks rushed up, Laura wondered, or had she strained to meet them?

Trembling, Laura took a step back. Seraphina had found nothing but an end, she thought, a horribly easy end to pain. Her own wouldn’t be easy, because she would have to live with it. Live without Michael. And finally accept that she would live without her dream.