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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. 1Playing the Sap—Again
  3. 2Fit for Life
  4. 3Auteur Deconstructed
  5. 4Long Shot
  6. 5Designer Beer
  7. 6Crossing the River
  8. 7A Happening Place
  9. 8On the Hill
  10. 9Red Menace
  11. 10What Big Teeth You Have
  12. 11Rabid Fans
  13. 12Ugly Duckling
  14. 13One Sober Minute
  15. 14It’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad Scientist
  16. 15And Besides, the Mensch Is Dead
  17. 16Down by the Riverside
  18. 17Junkyard Dogs
  19. 18Those Good Old Days
  20. 19Dead End
  21. 20The Short-Tempered Arm of the Law
  22. 21Voices from Home
  23. 22Barflies
  24. 23Picture Perfect
  25. 24Trespassers W
  26. 25Trouble in Douglas County
  27. 26Patriots Care
  28. 27Spiritual Adviser
  29. 28Disappearing Act
  30. 29Data Swapping
  31. 30Visiting Brass
  32. 31Origin Stories
  33. 32Carrying the Can
  34. 33Picking Through the Bones
  35. 34Hard Words
  36. 35Knee-Deep in Water
  37. 36Casual Day in Court
  38. 37Twenty-Four-Karat Smile
  39. 38Upscale Housing
  40. 39Surprise, Surprise!
  41. 40Polar Bear
  42. 41You’re So Ignorant
  43. 42Sonia, April 1983
  44. 43Hazmat Site
  45. 44Swabbing the Decks, or Something
  46. 45Here for the Duration
  47. 46The Fighting Germs
  48. 47Playing with Germs
  49. 48Late Night at the Library
  50. 49Baby Blues
  51. 50Where Oh Where Can My Baby Be?
  52. 51Known Unknowns
  53. 52Good Country People
  54. 53Date Night at the Movies
  55. 54Now the Wench Is Dead
  56. 55Men in Black
  57. 56Snake Eyes
  58. 57Tang Soo
  59. 58Ci Sono
  60. 59Entertaining Visitors
  61. 60Fairy Tales
  62. 61The Sisters Grow Up
  63. 62There’s No Place Like Home
  64. Thanks
  65. About the Author
  66. Also by Sara Paretsky
  67. About the Publisher

Shirley tracked him with her eyes, her expression malevolent. After he shut his door, she heaved herself to her feet and led me silently to the front of the house.

I handed her one of my cards, urging her to phone me if there was something else she could tell me about where Sonia might have last seen Matt Chastain. The graveyard Sonia was obsessed with could easily be a metaphor for her own buried hopes; perhaps Matt had talked to her there, kissed her, done something that made her feel that a particular spot was sacred.

“It was over thirty years ago, so I don’t remember.” Shirley pushed open the outer door. “Anyway, everyone was confused. What was real, what was imaginary, how could I know? I wasn’t there.”

“What happened?” I said. “What went so wrong with the experiment that Matt Chastain felt he had to run away?”

“Nate doesn’t confide in me.”

I would have believed her more readily if she hadn’t swallowed a sly smile before answering.

“I don’t know anything about this kind of work, but something going wrong with an experiment—was there an explosion? Were people hurt? Or did something your husband worked on make people sick?”

She looked startled, even alarmed. “I don’t know, and anyway, I just told you, it was a long time ago.”

“But your daughter must have seen something, if it terrified her so much that she had to cover the memory with the protective story that Chastain had died or been killed.”

“My daughter,” and she again invested a shocking amount of venom in the two syllables, “was sneaking out of the house and trailing around after poor Matt. Dr. Chesnitz says the most likely scenario is that she flung herself at Matt, who rejected her. She was fourteen, overweight, not the kind of girl anyone would respond to, let alone a young man in his twenties. Chesnitz says that in Sonia’s mind Matt had to be punished by death. Thinking he was murdered helps her blot out the memory of the rejection and turn him into an idealized figure who was in love with her.”

“It sounds like a convenient theory,” I said.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” She thrust her head forward in her signature turkey move.

“Keeps anyone from asking too many questions about what really happened, or where, or how.”

She started to bristle, but I interrupted to ask if her sons kept in touch with Sonia.

Her expression darkened. “I wouldn’t know. They couldn’t take Nate, his bullying and his moods. Stuart went to school at Bowdoin, out in Maine, never came home after his sophomore year, and Larry, he went to college in Oregon and stayed out on the West Coast. If they talk to Sonia, that’s something you’d have to ask them.”