Back Fallout
Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. 1Playing the Sap—Again
  3. 2Fit for Life
  4. 3Auteur Deconstructed
  5. 4Long Shot
  6. 5Designer Beer
  7. 6Crossing the River
  8. 7A Happening Place
  9. 8On the Hill
  10. 9Red Menace
  11. 10What Big Teeth You Have
  12. 11Rabid Fans
  13. 12Ugly Duckling
  14. 13One Sober Minute
  15. 14It’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad Scientist
  16. 15And Besides, the Mensch Is Dead
  17. 16Down by the Riverside
  18. 17Junkyard Dogs
  19. 18Those Good Old Days
  20. 19Dead End
  21. 20The Short-Tempered Arm of the Law
  22. 21Voices from Home
  23. 22Barflies
  24. 23Picture Perfect
  25. 24Trespassers W
  26. 25Trouble in Douglas County
  27. 26Patriots Care
  28. 27Spiritual Adviser
  29. 28Disappearing Act
  30. 29Data Swapping
  31. 30Visiting Brass
  32. 31Origin Stories
  33. 32Carrying the Can
  34. 33Picking Through the Bones
  35. 34Hard Words
  36. 35Knee-Deep in Water
  37. 36Casual Day in Court
  38. 37Twenty-Four-Karat Smile
  39. 38Upscale Housing
  40. 39Surprise, Surprise!
  41. 40Polar Bear
  42. 41You’re So Ignorant
  43. 42Sonia, April 1983
  44. 43Hazmat Site
  45. 44Swabbing the Decks, or Something
  46. 45Here for the Duration
  47. 46The Fighting Germs
  48. 47Playing with Germs
  49. 48Late Night at the Library
  50. 49Baby Blues
  51. 50Where Oh Where Can My Baby Be?
  52. 51Known Unknowns
  53. 52Good Country People
  54. 53Date Night at the Movies
  55. 54Now the Wench Is Dead
  56. 55Men in Black
  57. 56Snake Eyes
  58. 57Tang Soo
  59. 58Ci Sono
  60. 59Entertaining Visitors
  61. 60Fairy Tales
  62. 61The Sisters Grow Up
  63. 62There’s No Place Like Home
  64. Thanks
  65. About the Author
  66. Also by Sara Paretsky
  67. About the Publisher

“Poor little bear,” he said. “Tell her I love her.”

Larry, who was hiking outside Portland with his two children, knew even less about his sister’s adolescent history than Stuart, but his description of their mother was similar.

“She was angry all the time after Sonia was born. Up to then she’d been normal some of the time. I mean, she sometimes had the interactions with Stu and me that I see my wife doing with our kids: Did you hurt yourself when you fell? What happened at school today? After Sonia was born, Mom checked out for good. She seemed to want us all to look after her, and she didn’t pay much attention to the baby. I remember her screaming at Dad all through the pregnancy: What about her life? She wasn’t dealing with any more kids. He could stay home from the lab a few nights a week to help out. I was eight, Stuart was six—you can imagine what that was like.”

I grunted agreement. I’d met Shirley and Nate. I could picture it.

“Made me nervous as hell about having any kids of my own, put it off until I was almost fifty. Poor little polar bear, though. Tell her I love her.”

“Polar bear?” I echoed. “Your brother called her ‘little bear.’”

“It was our nickname,” Larry said. “She had a white bear winter suit when she was three or four, and she loved wearing it. When we got home from school, she’d meet us at the door growling and beg for a raw seal. We’d cut up an apple and pretend it was a seal and let her hunt for it. Maybe it was the only time we were all happy together.”

Like his brother, Larry asked me to tell him as soon as I knew Sonia’s condition. Like his brother, Larry knew nothing about Matt Chastain or the experiment, but he did remember Shirley screaming at Kiel about the European woman.

“Bratislava, not Barcelona,” he said. “Dad went to some conference in Czechoslovakia about his bug, not sure when. He was always jetting around the world—summer institutes in Aspen, meetings with the army at Fort Detrick, conferences in Europe. He was a big noise in his field, and he loved being the center of attention.

“Anyway, a couple of years after he went to that particular jamboree, this woman showed up. I was counting the hours until I could leave for college, and I was spending as little time at home as possible, so I don’t remember too much about it, just my mother’s histrionics—drunk, sobbing, yelling, throwing things—and Dad screaming back at her.”

He was silent, revisiting a place he hadn’t liked to begin with.