Chapters (67)
- Dedication
- 1Playing the Sap—Again
- 2Fit for Life
- 3Auteur Deconstructed
- 4Long Shot
- 5Designer Beer
- 6Crossing the River
- 7A Happening Place
- 8On the Hill
- 9Red Menace
- 10What Big Teeth You Have
- 11Rabid Fans
- 12Ugly Duckling
- 13One Sober Minute
- 14It’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad Scientist
- 15And Besides, the Mensch Is Dead
- 16Down by the Riverside
- 17Junkyard Dogs
- 18Those Good Old Days
- 19Dead End
- 20The Short-Tempered Arm of the Law
- 21Voices from Home
- 22Barflies
- 23Picture Perfect
- 24Trespassers W
- 25Trouble in Douglas County
- 26Patriots Care
- 27Spiritual Adviser
- 28Disappearing Act
- 29Data Swapping
- 30Visiting Brass
- 31Origin Stories
- 32Carrying the Can
- 33Picking Through the Bones
- 34Hard Words
- 35Knee-Deep in Water
- 36Casual Day in Court
- 37Twenty-Four-Karat Smile
- 38Upscale Housing
- 39Surprise, Surprise!
- 40Polar Bear
- 41You’re So Ignorant
- 42Sonia, April 1983
- 43Hazmat Site
- 44Swabbing the Decks, or Something
- 45Here for the Duration
- 46The Fighting Germs
- 47Playing with Germs
- 48Late Night at the Library
- 49Baby Blues
- 50Where Oh Where Can My Baby Be?
- 51Known Unknowns
- 52Good Country People
- 53Date Night at the Movies
- 54Now the Wench Is Dead
- 55Men in Black
- 56Snake Eyes
- 57Tang Soo
- 58Ci Sono
- 59Entertaining Visitors
- 60Fairy Tales
- 61The Sisters Grow Up
- 62There’s No Place Like Home
- Thanks
- About the Author
- Also by Sara Paretsky
- About the Publisher
“Poor little bear,” he said. “Tell her I love her.”
Larry, who was hiking outside Portland with his two children, knew even less about his sister’s adolescent history than Stuart, but his description of their mother was similar.
“She was angry all the time after Sonia was born. Up to then she’d been normal some of the time. I mean, she sometimes had the interactions with Stu and me that I see my wife doing with our kids: Did you hurt yourself when you fell? What happened at school today? After Sonia was born, Mom checked out for good. She seemed to want us all to look after her, and she didn’t pay much attention to the baby. I remember her screaming at Dad all through the pregnancy: What about her life? She wasn’t dealing with any more kids. He could stay home from the lab a few nights a week to help out. I was eight, Stuart was six—you can imagine what that was like.”
I grunted agreement. I’d met Shirley and Nate. I could picture it.
“Made me nervous as hell about having any kids of my own, put it off until I was almost fifty. Poor little polar bear, though. Tell her I love her.”
“Polar bear?” I echoed. “Your brother called her ‘little bear.’”
“It was our nickname,” Larry said. “She had a white bear winter suit when she was three or four, and she loved wearing it. When we got home from school, she’d meet us at the door growling and beg for a raw seal. We’d cut up an apple and pretend it was a seal and let her hunt for it. Maybe it was the only time we were all happy together.”
Like his brother, Larry asked me to tell him as soon as I knew Sonia’s condition. Like his brother, Larry knew nothing about Matt Chastain or the experiment, but he did remember Shirley screaming at Kiel about the European woman.
“Bratislava, not Barcelona,” he said. “Dad went to some conference in Czechoslovakia about his bug, not sure when. He was always jetting around the world—summer institutes in Aspen, meetings with the army at Fort Detrick, conferences in Europe. He was a big noise in his field, and he loved being the center of attention.
“Anyway, a couple of years after he went to that particular jamboree, this woman showed up. I was counting the hours until I could leave for college, and I was spending as little time at home as possible, so I don’t remember too much about it, just my mother’s histrionics—drunk, sobbing, yelling, throwing things—and Dad screaming back at her.”
He was silent, revisiting a place he hadn’t liked to begin with.