Once Sydney got him out and they were almost inside the house, April gave Erin what could only be described as her sister-look. It was the one she gave Erin every time she was about to force information out of her. “So, what’s up? It’s not that I don’t love having you here, but you hate last minute plans.”

Erin pointed toward the sidewalk that looped around April’s neighborhood. “Wanna go for a walk? This might take a bit.”

“Of course.” April put her arm around Erin’s shoulder and began walking. “So, what’s going on with Blair?”

Erin’s body stiffened just at the mention of Blair. “How do you know this is about her?”

“Because I haven’t seen you look this rattled since Bianca left. Honestly, you might look worse this time.”

“Well, gee, thanks,” Erin said sarcastically.

April rolled her eyes. “You know what I mean. I can tell something is wrong, and you’re normally pretty good at hiding it, which means something is really  wrong.”

“I think I might’ve really messed things up.”

April waved her hand in a go-on motion. “You’re gonna have to give me more than that if I’m going to tell you what an idiot you are.”

“She asked me to be her girlfriend.”

“Okay… You do know that is supposed to be a good thing, right?”

“I know.” Erin threw her hands up in the air. “So, why do I feel like I’m going to throw up at the thought of it? I want it so bad, but at the same time, I don’t know how to stop being scared.”

“Can I give you the hard truth?”

“I’m sure you would even if I said no.”

April laughed. “This is true. That’s what big sisters are for.” She stopped walking and turned to face Erin. “There are always going to be things that scare you in life, but sometimes the scariest things are the most worthwhile. Tell me this, do you worry about Nolan?”

“Every second of every minute of every hour of every day.”

“If you had the chance to give him up so you didn’t have to worry anymore, would you?”

Why would she even ask that? Erin wasn’t Bianca. Not that Bianca seemed to worry about him even before she gave him up. “Of course not.”

A shit-eating grin took over April’s face. “Exactly, because some people are worth being scared for.”

Point made . Erin had never actually thought of it that way. She was too stuck in her own fear to see everything she was missing out on. Unfortunately, that still didn’t help her get rid of the sick feeling in her gut. “Can I ask you something?”

“You can ask me anything.”