Erin knew she had to say something to prove to Blair how much she meant to her and that she did trust her, but Blair placed a kiss on her lips before she could.

When she pulled away, she replaced her lips with her finger. “Don’t say anything right now. I want to give you some time to think this through. I’m going to go home, but that doesn’t mean I’m not coming back. I think we both just need a little bit of time to get our heads on straight before we have this talk. Maybe I can sleep over after Nolan and my giraffe experience?”

Erin wanted to stop crying but she couldn’t help herself. Even though Blair hadn’t given up on her completely, Erin worried she would if she wasn’t able to get her head on straight over these next two days. Blair was right, though. Maybe they needed this time, even if it sucked feeling like they were saying goodbye while leaving things unresolved. “You’re right. A sleepover on Tuesday sounds great.” She tried her best to smile, but she was sure it wasn’t good enough to fool Blair.

Blair smiled back at her and wiped her cheeks once again. “Good. Now stop crying, please. There’s no way I’ll be able to leave here if you’re crying.”

Her words only made Erin cry harder, because it was a reminder of how amazing Blair was. At first, Erin had worried she was too immature, but at some point over the last few months, Blair had become the mature one between the two of them.

Erin put her hands on top of Blair’s and squeezed them. “I’m okay. I promise. I’ll be okay. We’ll be okay.”

Blair watched Erin with all of the wonder and awe of a mother looking at her newborn. “I know we will.”

Blair gave her one more kiss before standing from bed and getting all of her things together. She turned around one more time when she was at the doorway and gave Erin a sad smile and a small wave before leaving.

Erin wanted nothing more than to stay in bed all day and cry and wallow in self pity, but there were two big reasons she couldn’t. The first was that she had Nolan, and as much as she always made sure to let him know it was okay to be sad, she didn’t want him to realize she was sad and get worried. The other reason was that wallowing was not going to do anything to solve her problems. She needed to figure this out to make sure she didn’t end up losing the girl of her dreams.