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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

“Sure.” He sighed, nodding. “It’s time.” For a fleeting moment he looked so sad that I could hardly bear it, and then it passed, and he was his handsome, sunny self again.

“Why me?” I asked—a simple enough question.

“I told you. Tomato Tomato meant something to me,” he said.

I looked at him with suspicion and he laughed. “Honestly,” he said. “Fill this”—he spread out his arms—“full of that.”

The piece that he kept mentioning, Tomato Tomato, was from my last show, The Distance Between Our Moral Imaginations. Each painting in that series was named with a word that conjured the differences between Americans and our long-lost colonial overlords, half named from the song “Let’s Call the Whole Thing Off”: Potato Potato, Either Either, Neither Neither, Produce Produce, Privacy Privacy, Leisure Leisure, Patriot Patriot. Tomato Tomato truly is a painting that everybody falls in love with. There is some quality of love that reaches out of it—love that is so big, and so real, you cannot remember what life was like before you felt it.

“And—because I know you’ll appreciate it,” he said.

He was right.

*  *  *

I was so engrossed that I didn’t hear them pulling in through the rainstorm. Marlin in paint-spattered white jeans and a t-shirt; Jes in navy coveralls. Each carried a cardboard box.

“Whaddya think?” Marlin called out. They walked straight to a metal bookcase, halfway back, covered in tools and ephemera.

“It’s an airplane hangar,” I called back. “It’s a miracle.”

“Get your shit out of my studio, then!” she yelled.

“Right now?”

“No time like the present,” Jes said, picking things off the bookshelf, boxing them up. “We came to move the rest of the Carey stuff.”

“Oh my God, you don’t need to move that,” I said. “It’s totally fine—please don’t.”

“We’re not moving it for you,” Tyler said, but nicely.

Marlin tossed him her keys.

“Let’s go!”

He drove us back to Pine City in her brand-new Ford F-250, a black behemoth with a gleaming topper over the bed. I stole glances at him from the passenger seat.

When we got to the print studio, he had me open both doors so that he could back in and out of the rain, and by the time we got ourselves inside we were both soaking wet and depositing huge, muddy tracks across Marlin’s studio floor.

“Whoops,” I said, looking down.

“She won’t care. She wants her studio back,” he assured me, putting his hand on my arm. Startled by his touch, I tried not to blush. He let go, grabbed a box, and slid it down the truck bed. “We’ll mop up later.”