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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

A girl in a tuxedo leotard appeared and whispered something in Charlie’s ear. He nodded.

“Me neither, I suppose.” Charlie sighed, sticking out his hand again. “Pleasure to see you, Tyler.” He leaned down and kissed me goodbye, the smooth surface of his clean-shaven cheek brushing hotly against mine. “Come over for supper. We miss you.”

“I will,” I promised.

Tyler watched him walk away. “How long have you known them?” he asked.

“Her? Twenty years, give or take. We were childhood pen pals. Friends, sort of.”

“Him?”

“I’ve only met him a few times,” I said, “but he’s a nuclear flirt.” I wandered into the grass and looked up at the stars. One broke free from the Milky Way and barreled across the sky; I looked around to see if anyone else had seen it, but the crowd around me was busy, talking and laughing, everyone except for a golden-blond woman on the other side of the yard, sitting on the Goldsworthy wall all alone. There was something familiar about her. Like so many other people at the party, she was a stranger who gave me the sense we’d been in the same room before. She caught me staring, pointed at the sky, and waved at me, as if to say, I saw it too. I waved back—a tiny little shake of my hand—pleased to have shared the moment with somebody.

When I turned around, Jes Winsome had draped her long arm over Tyler’s shoulder, and they whispered urgently to each other. He shifted slightly under her weight, not uncomfortably, and my stomach fell.

“You’re the summer girl?” Jes asked once we made eye contact, her voice a razor’s edge, a violent dog whistle, signaling ownership. Her fingers rested on the lapel of Tyler’s tuxedo, the skin dyed dark blue up to her knuckles, matching the color of the fabric. Whether it was ink or a tattoo, I couldn’t tell. I suspected that was the point. Tiny charms glittered from within the long ropes of her hair, and gold sparked from the bottom of her mouth. Kohl rimmed her eyes, inky pools of ash and hazel, and she drank me in.

This woman scared the living shit out of me.

“I suppose,” I said quietly, automatically submissive, as she intended. When she narrowed her eyes, bored with my two-word reply, I opened my mouth but—as in my dream about the fire—nothing came out. Ketamine, I realized, feeling my heart drift through the aquarium of my body. Uh-oh.

“This one doesn’t even speak,” she said, rolling her eyes.

I’m too high.

Tyler gave me an odd look. “Are you okay?” he asked.