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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

“Listen, I’m truly sorry about trespassing in your studio,” I said with what I hoped sounded like remorse. “I didn’t know what to do. Tyler gave me the barn, but it’s not usable. I respect that I’m a guest here. But I am completely at your mercy. I’m desperate.”

“You know what…don’t worry about it. These are good,” she said, turning back to another panel, letting her palm hover over the wet, wavy surface of the oil. “How long again?”

“Three months.”

“We’ll find you another space. I need to be back in here”—she glanced at a calendar on the wall—“before June fifteenth.” She turned and looked out the window, crossing her arms over her white overalls. “Rats,” she continued. “That barn needs to be torn down. Tyler should have never given it to you. He can be combative. Don’t take it personally.”

“It’s okay,” I said. “I can’t move these yet, though. I need another week or two. Is that okay?”

She nodded and scribbled her cellphone number on a piece of paper.

“Call me when you’re ready. I’ll let you get back to it,” she said, turning on her heel and heading for the door. “We usually do sundowners at the Mission.”

We. I wondered if Tyler was back. Not exactly an invitation, but close enough.

“Cool. See you,” I replied, plugging in my headphones. Briefly, I let myself wear the slender thrill of inclusion before turning back to Prudence, and then I zeroed in and the day disappeared behind me. At some point the sun completed its arc across the lake and began to sink into the horizon. I stepped back, wrapped my palette knives in plastic, scrubbed my hands with a turpentine rag, and marched toward the restaurant.

*  *  *

I’d seen so many images of the Mission, of its scarred wooden floors and bedraggled red velvet curtains, of its massive round tables and the floor-to-ceiling windows that looked out over the lake, of its deck covered in a long line of wooden Adirondack chairs, that walking toward the real thing felt both jarringly surreal and slightly disappointing.