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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

“No. Tyler left. Nobody’s here. I can’t use the barn they gave me. It’s falling apart.”

“It probably does need work. But that’s how they do things, you know.”

“Susan. We talked about this. It’s an emergency. I agreed to seven paintings for my show. This is number seven. I don’t turn in number seven, I don’t get paid for numbers one through six. This could set me back financially for actual years. You said you understood. I need a usable space—a big one. How do I get into the other buildings?”

“All right.” She sighed into the phone, sounding annoyed. “I suppose…my girl Friday, Julian, can bring you a key to another studio tomorrow. Meet him up front at…say, eight thirty. Don’t be late.”

She hung up before I could beg her to send him tonight.

*  *  *

Alone in the bungalow, I ripped into a bag of gas-station popcorn and unpacked. I had two bags of groceries, six pounds of coffee beans, a bottle of bourbon, a sixer of cheap beer, and three cases of seltzer. The metal cabinets in the kitchen thankfully revealed plates, cutlery, a coffeepot, and a smattering of pots and pans.

My clothes, destroyed in the fire, weren’t great to begin with. They’d been easily replaced in one gin-soaked afternoon with Atticus. Given free rein in the Forest Hills Salvation Army a mile walk from his shipping container, he selected variations on one theme: Dennis the Menace. Out of the duffel Atticus packed came cutoff jean shorts, oversize secondhand t-shirts, overalls, and multipacks of underwear and socks from the drugstore. His idea of a joke. Fine. After I dumped out a bag of brand-new toiletries from Ricky’s into the bathroom—soap, toothpaste, hair bleach, toner, and a purple lipstick it seemed I’d never have the occasion to wear—stacked four paperbacks from Goodwill into a pile, and duct-taped the hole in my leg, my hands were empty.

Unpacking my entire life had taken forty-five minutes.

I stood on my tiptoes to get the duffel onto the closet shelf. As I reached, pushing it to the back, I noticed one set of initials carved in the wood: MFC. I ran my fingers over the letters and wondered how long ago this house had welcomed a guest. I tried to imagine it before the leaves and cobwebs took over.