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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

Cut to Jack, in his studio, sitting on an apple box against the wall. “Marlin and I hand-built the bones, the legs, the skin, the shapes; Tyler painted the decay. When we were done, it was good. We knew it was good. But it wasn’t what we wanted to do with our careers.”

Tyler: “I don’t remember which one of us thought of it.”

Marlin: “I know that it happened at the Half King, at one of the outside tables, because in those days we all smoked. It was October, months after graduation, when we shared the living room of our apartment as a studio. Jes, we’d met earlier that year. She was living with us by then.”

Jes, sitting alone on the black stage of her theater: “Everybody was telling us to be smart. Galleries were rejecting the same work we were praised for in school—Marlin’s prints, my music and films, Tyler and Jack’s installations—telling us that they weren’t salable. We were told, again and again, that the market needed an easy conversation.”

Tyler: “The first months outside of school, in the cold hard world where nobody cared, were a shock. Jes got rejected from one gallery after three months of studio visits and talks about a show. I lost like five bartending gigs. Jack started doing drugs pretty hard. We were going nowhere fast.”

Jes: “We tried to talk to one of Jack’s professor friends about it. He said that it was a great-looking sculpture, but nobody was going to be impressed by four young rich kids who wanted to romanticize death. He talked about Rachel Whiteread, how House got torn down right away because people were so insulted that some privileged elite artist wanted to fetishize other people’s pain.”

Jack: “He asked me about it years later. I said he must have misremembered.”

Jes: “We were pissed off. We thought that the whole world was our enemy. We wanted to turn it upside down.”

Marlin: “We entered HARD BODY (7 TIMES A DAY) into the Young Foundation show, with a made-up backstory and a fake person, the whole thing. If it got any press, we were going to say right then and there that it was a hoax.”

Jack: “It was Jes’s idea to give it this, like, political dimension.”

Jes: “It was the ’90s. Everyone loved stories about women suffering. The history of art is littered with the bodies of dead women. That’s always been true. Think about Paris in the last century. L’Inconnue de la Seine. Every artist had this woman’s death mask on their wall, like it meant something that she looked happy when she drowned.” She sniffs. “But it didn’t mean anything.”

Jack: “We felt that our class position was holding us back. Class was a construction, we told ourselves.”